The Balcony II

by Anne Isabelle

URL: http://www.area52hkh.net/asa/aisabelle/balcony02.php
Summary: Beckett comforts McKay after The Eye

Dr. Beckett knelt beside Dr. McKay rolled in a trembling ball in a corner of his weakly lit bedroom. The chief scientist let out a distressed sound as Carson reached out to touch his face and buried it between his knees. He was unable to face his lover after what he had done and couldn't let him touch him because he felt mucked up by infamy.

Carson Indian style in front of the other man, sighed, and said, "Listen to me Rodney; you did what you had to do. I don't blame you for that, nor does anyone else. You had to save Atlantis and the people inside the control room. You did the right thing."

Rodney let out a strangled sob and whispered. "I could have killed Teyla, the Genii girl and you. You could have been exposed in the corridors with millions of volts of electricity burning you to death. Dr. Weir and Sheppard told me to wait. If they had not I would have gotten you killed. Oh God! I feel so horrible..."

The doctor nodded. "You didn't kill us. I'm still here Rodney, and to see you like this... makes me feel miserable." He tousled his lover's short hair and then added. "Please Rodney; don't feel responsible of something that didn't happen. I am not dead. Look at me luv..."

McKay shook his head then he turned around, facing the wall. "Go away Carson, leave me alone. I'm a heartless and self-centered bastard."

"No you're not."

"I am. Plus I am... the list would be too long to enumerate. You know what kind of man I am right?"

"Yes, you're gentle, and caring, and..."

Rodney shook his head. "No! That's not what I meant! I'm arrogant, stubborn and rude, totally insufferable..."

Beckett shook his head. "Not completely, because I'm in love with you and the others, Elizabeth, John, Aiden, Peter, Radek, love you too because they know that you're a good man, loyal and brave. And I repeat, you're gentle, and caring and loving."

The doctor grabbed the scientist's shoulder and then pushed him down onto his back. Then he straddled his lover's legs and holding his wrist in a tight grip, he pinned him on the floor. Obliged to face the physician, Rodney closed his eyes shut. Carson cupped his lover's face, leaned forward and then kissed him hard, devouring his lips, making the astrophysicist understand that he wasn't mad at him but loved him still. McKay resisted the desire he had to kiss his lover back, still ashamed of what he had done, but his resolution melted as snow in the sun when he felt Carson fondle him between his legs. He parted his lips inviting Carson inside. The kiss deepened as the doctor explored his partner's mouth with abandon, drawing his lover's tongue in deep and writing swirls of pleasure with his own, tasting every inch of his lover's mouth. They melted into each other, kisses following one after the other in fast succession, each as perfect as the last. After a moment, Carson pressed himself closer to his partner, feeling the hardness against his thigh. Obviously, he was not the only one benefiting from the caress of tongue against tongue. But eventually, the biological need for oxygen outweighed even their mutual passion and Beckett pulled back to suck in air.

Rodney let out a sob then tears rolled on his cheeks. "I'm so sorry Carson. Please forgive me love. Please-please-please-please-please... please Carson, don't reject me, love me..."

Beckett stroked his lover's wet cheek lovingly. "I forgive you Rodney and I love you. Never will I reject you luv, ever."

He slipped his hand down between the other man's legs to cup the bulge he found there. Rodney squirmed as Carson began rubbing his palm against it, then the doctor mimicked the movement with his other hand against his lover's chest while whispering in his ear, telling him how much he loved him, how much he wanted to make love to him.

Rodney too wanted Carson to make love to him. He lifted his hips to help his lover get his pants and boxers out of the way. He heeled off his shoes, and pushed the pants and underwear off, spreading his legs to give the doctor access, which Beckett took full and immediate advantage of. He kissed Rodney's inner thighs, all the while watching his partner's cock in fascination as pearly beads of semen seeped from McKay's swollen tip. He ran his thumb around the head of Rodney's penis, brushing the most sensitive areas. The scientist's hips jerked into the sensation, and then he let out a frantic moan of dismay as Carson stopped his stroking. Beckett removed the other man's jacket and tee shirt quickly and easily. He fingered the taut nipples, kissing, licking, and sucking each one. It didn't take much of this until Rodney was writhing, moaning and gasping underneath Carson while he pleasured him.

The doctor's own erection was starting to get uncomfortable, confined in his boxers and pants. He shifted a little to ease it, but did not stop what he was doing to tend to it. Covering his finger in his saliva, he ran the digit around the entrance to his lover's body, teasing the sensitive opening before pushing his lubricated finger in and moving it around in search for the hidden gland. After several long minutes, Beckett added a second finger, twisting and stroking. He found the prostate and began to stroke it.

Rodney cried out then he breathed, "Oh God! Oh God! ... That feels so good don't stop babe, please don't stop." Then he screamed, as once again his lover found his prostate. "Oh God Carson! I'm going to come..."

Rodney suddenly arched, yelled, and came in great long spurts over Carson's chest and belly. After McKay stopped shaking in the aftermath of his orgasm, Beckett caught a spurt of sperm in his hand and eased a finger into his lover's relaxed body. Once he was sure that the scientist was ready for more, he helped to turn Rodney on to his front. He kissed and caressed his way down his back. Then he gently lifted Rodney's hips, spread a generous amount of his partner's seed onto his hands carefully coat his throbbing penis in it before adding more to McKay's dilated opening. He spread his partner's ass cheeks and placed his cock at the entrance and slowly began to enter. Rodney moaned his approval as Carson slowly filled him, rocking back and forth, teasing, still teasing, letting the other man know that he was in control and would set the pace of his partner's pleasure. Unable to stand it anymore, McKay let out a growl and pushed himself backwards until Carson was fully sheathed inside of him. He heard a gasp and then felt the weight of the doctor's trembling body pressing against his sweaty back. With every shred of control the two lovers had left, they held completely still, savoring the intimate moment. It gave Rodney the opportunity to think that with Carson he felt full, complete, loved, protected. Then he remembered what had happened a few hours ago and shame and grief suddenly overwhelmed him making pleasure and joy vanish in the wink of an eye. McKay let out a strangled sob and parted from his lover eliciting a groan of protest from Beckett. Then he stood up, fighting off a feeling of dizziness. On shaky legs, he headed towards the bathroom, staggering. Once in the bathroom, he sank to his knees in front of the toilet and threw up until his eyes watered and her stomach was empty. When he wanted to get up, he was incapable of it. His head was spinning, he was shaken by shudders, his teeth were chattering, and his throat was burning. He decided to remain where he was until he felt a little better. He lay down on the tiled floor rolled in a ball and closed his eyes

He fell asleep again a few seconds later.

~~

Later

McKay woke up when he felt some warm water trickling over his face. He slowly opened his eyes and noticed that the water was pouring over his body, from his head to his feet. He was standing in the bathtub under the spray of the shower, firmly held by Carson grabbing his shoulders. The scientist tried to push the doctor away. His legs buckled under him and the doctor caught him up before he collapsed.

Beckett frowned worryingly then said, "You and I are going to the infirmary at once Rodney..."

McKay shook his head. "No, I'm fine. I'm just tired, that's all... I just need to rest, and to rest alone Carson."

Beckett sighed. "You're thinking about what happened a few hours ago, again, right? That's what made you sick."

Rodney closed his arms around his lover's back and held him in a bear hug, crying softly. "Yes... You make me so happy Carson, so complete, and-and- I tried to kill you... I am so disgusted by myself... I don't deserve your love." He abruptly parted from the other man and left the bathroom, heading towards the balcony.

Carson joined his lover shortly after and wrapped the scientist in his bathrobe, then he made Rodney turn around and stroked his cheek soothingly. "I love you Rodney. I love you so very much..."

The head scientist looked at his bandaged forearm remembering vividly the Genii soldier stabbing his flesh with his dagger and the pain, which had followed. "For a moment I thought Kolya was going to shoot both of us... I was so scared I was shaking...I wished that Kolya killed me when I stepped in front him ..."

Carson kissed his lover's temple lovingly. "That was a very brave gesture Rodney. Elizabeth told me what happened. You stepped in front of a gun for her. Kolya was about to shoot her, and you stepped right in front of it and convinced the Genii to keep Elizabeth alive. You are a hero. You saved Atlantis, Elizabeth, and the others - me included. Me Rodney, me! I'm very proud of you." he pulled McKay into his arms and kissed his forehead. "Please luv, forget this. Past is past. Think about the future... You have so many things to do, like explore the rest of Atlantis, discover and study the Ancient's technology, go on away mission through the Stargate or using a puddle jumper in order to find ZPM's and food, try to restore the shield to protect Atlantis from the Wraith... You do not have time to lose thinking about what happened and what you could have done if... and please, stop self-loathing. All right? You're a genius thus intelligent enough to understand what your priorities are...." He grinned and then added. "And don't forget to please your lover."

He planted soft kisses on Rodney's cheek, and Rodney buried his face in Carson's shoulder.

The scientist whispered then. "You're right Carson. I've been a bloody ass as always."

Carson grabbed his lover's ass possessively. "Reasonable finally, good boy and speaking of ass... I've still some unfinished business involving a beautiful ass..."

He took the bathrobe off McKay and then grabbing his lover by his love handles he licked and nibbled his lover until he was leaning against the railing. Then Beckett encircled the other man's penis in his fist gently squeezed and pulled until Rodney was fully erect. Then Carson asked his lover to turn round and Rodney did trembling with anticipated pleasure, loving the caress of the wind and the gentle burn of the sunbeams on his pale skin.

Carson nipped softly at the smooth skin of Rodney's broad back as he reached in front to wrap his hand around his lover's rock hard shaft. Stroking it firmly, he let the scientist's moans and inarticulate growls of pleasure wash over him and he was rock hard within seconds.

"Bend forward and spread your legs luv," the doctor commanded.

The scientist complied. He shivered when he felt Carson's warm hands caressing his buttocks before he pulled them wide apart. Seeing the pale skin turn darker in the cleft, Beckett couldn't resist running his tongue down the crack until he reached the tight opening of his lover. He slowly he circled his tongue around and around the still deliciously dilated hole making Rodney moan and become all-limp. The doctor then hurried to coat his throbbing penis with his semen, then he applied the slick and thick liquid on the anus and then he pushed the head inside his lover's puckered hole. Using both hands, he pulled his lover to him and with an easy thrust he pushed his way slowly into the body of the other man. The scientist moaned as he adjusted to Carson's considerable size, his tight passage clenching around him. Suddenly he let out a strangled cry when the tip of his partner's shaft banged up against his prostrate. He then immediately started to thrust backward impaling himself on the physician's pulsating member. Carson violently began thrusting against Rodney moving in and out, harder, faster, pumping in a mindless frenzy into the orifice. McKay cried out in pleasure under his lover's assault and soon rocked with him. Reaching around, the doctor grasped his partner's hard cock and stroked it in time to their coupling. Rodney's hand joined Carson's, and they pumped together. Carson's body cried out for release, and he quickly lost control. He rocked deeper and faster into his partner's ass, his hand rapidly working the other man's aching member. He howled like a wolf as his orgasm rolled through him. McKay exploded too with a hoarse cry, erupting his semen over the doctor's hand and on the railing, his face contorted in an almost painful pleasure. He moaned and collapsed on the hard floor breathless on the verge of unconsciousness with ecstasy.

Beckett licked his fingers clean, savoring his lover's juice then he knelt beside Rodney and placed him in a sitting position against the railing where streaks of seed had started to dry. As soon as the scientist sat up, the world started to spin and black spots danced in front of his eyes. Nauseous he buried his face against the doctor's shoulder.

He whispered, "I don't feel good Carson... No food today... Oh God! I think I'm going to pass out..." Carson felt Rodney go suddenly limp against him and he raised the fainted, no passed out other man in his strong arms. He carried him inside to the bedroom and lay down him on the bed before calling his assistant and asking for a med team.

~~

Rodney opened his eyes about half an hour later to see Carson's smiling face bent towards his.

"Hi!" he said weakly. Then he glanced around him recognizing the infirmary and noticed an IV attached to his arm.

Carson shook his finger and growled. "You should have eaten something Rodney! You know you suffer from hypoglycemia and need to have your blood sugar at a safe level, otherwise..."

McKay nodded and raising his hand stroked his lover's bearded cheek, interrupting him. "I know. But I was preoccupied... and then you kept me entertained, drained my last strength... but it's not your fault if I passed out luv, it's mine. Please don't feel guilty. You're not responsible. I am." He closed his eyes feeling so very tired. "I'd like to sleep in my bed tonight... in your arms," he mumbled.

Carson kissed his lover's brow tenderly and said, "We'll see, for now sleep my luv. You need rest."

"Love you." Rodney breathed before falling fast asleep.

Beckett smiled. "Love you too."

THE END