It Just Won't Quit 1

It Just Won't Quit

by Annie

URL: http://www.area52hkh.net/asa/annie/wontquit01.php
Summary: Jack's in a bar listening to a song and wondering what's going on in his life

Jack sat in the bar listening to the song as it started to play on the jukebox. For the fifth time since he had come in an hour ago.

And I never really sleep anymore

When was the last time he had slept properly? Before he started arguing with Daniel.

And I always get those dangerous dreams

When was the last time he had slept through the night without a nightmare? Again, before he had started arguing with Daniel.

And I never get a minute of peace

"Oh I can so relate to that!" he thought as he took a sip from his beer. Even when they weren't getting along all that well, Daniel still managed to occupy his thoughts.

And I gotta wonder what it means

What did it mean? Once it had meant a lot. He had been a father to Charlie. He had been a husband to Sarah. Before that stupid idiotic moment in time when he had forgotten to lock his gun away and they had lost their son.

Once he had a best friend.

Is this a blessing?

No. The distance between himself and Daniel surely wasn't a blessing.

Or is it a curse?

Yes, that was what his current situation was. He had been cursed.

Does it get any better?

Oh God he hoped so.

Can it get any worse?

Worse? How could it worse? Mind you, knowing the way his current luck was going, it probably would. His team was falling to bits, and he was the reason. Or at least that was the impression the General had given earlier in his office. "Sort it out Colonel. I don't expect these sorts of problems from my premier team. If it's not dealt with soon, and I mean like yesterday, there will be changes made in SG-1."

I don't know what it is but it just won't quit

That was true. He had no idea what was wrong with him recently. He was snapping at everyone, but especially Daniel.

I don't know what it is but it just won't quit

He didn't know what the ache in his heart was.

I don't know what it is but it just won't quit

He didn't know how to solve the problem.

I don't know what it is but it just won't quit

For crying out loud, he already admitted this. Three times already!

Maybe I'm crazy and I'm losing my senses

Maybe I'm possessed by a spirit or such

Daniel. Jack didn't want to remember the time when his friend looked like he was crazy, like he was losing his senses. Turned out he had been possessed, by Machello's little silver buggers and no one had believed in Daniel till it was almost too late.

Check the time before Charlie's death. He had known that he was happy, that he was with a family that loved him. He had known that his son was going to grow up and be the best Hockey player the NHL had ever seen, the best baseball player...

"Whose fault is that, Jack boy? Who's the one who decided to flush the friendship down the drain? Yours, and you respectively." And the line from the song came back to haunt him.

Finishing his beer, he placed the glass on the blue coaster and looked into the bottom of it as he stood up. Seeing the way the blue was amplified by the glass, he was reminded of blue eyes. Blue eyes that were usually hidden behind a set of glasses. Finally being totally honest with himself, Jack admitted he knew what the problem was.

'It Just Won't Quit'
Sung by Meatloaf
Written by Jim Steinman

And I never really sleep anymore
And I always get those dangerous dreams
And I never get a minute of peace
And I gotta wonder what it means
And I gotta wonder what it means

Maybe it's nothing and I'm under the weather
Maybe it's just one of those bugs going round
Maybe I'm under a spell and it's magic
Maybe there's a witch doctor with an office in town

Is this a blessing? Or is it a curse?
Does it get any better? Can it get any worse?
Will it go on forever? Is it over tonight?
Does it come with the darkness? Does it bring out the light?
Is it richer than diamonds?
Or just a little cheaper than spit?
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit

And there used to be such an easy way of living
And there used to be every hope in the world
And I used to get everything I went after
But there never used to be this girl
But there never used to be this girl

Maybe I'm crazy and I'm losing my senses
Maybe I'm possessed by a spirit or such
Maybe I'm desperate and I've got no defenses
Can you get me a prescription for that one perfect touch?

Is this a blessing? Or is it a curse?
Does it get any better? Can it get any worse?
Will it go on forever? Is it over tonight?
Does it come with the darkness? Does it bring out the light?
It's a stairway to heaven or a subway going down to the pits
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit
I don't know what it is but it just won't quit

There was a time when nothing ever really mattered
There was a time when there was nothing I didn't know
There was a time when I knew just what I was living for
There was a time and the time was a long ago
There was a time and the time was so long ago
And I never really sleep anymore....