The Prophecy 5
Loss
by Dhamphir
URL: http://www.area52hkh.net/asd/dhamphir/propha05.php
Summary: After Janet is lost on P3X-666, Thor informs SG-1 they must go on a mission through the stargate to fulfill an Ancient prophecy
Info: This is a Janet centric fic that tells the story of how Janet makes a new life for herself after the events of Heroes. Her past relationship with Sam is discussed and they reaffirm their friendship. Thanks to Oxfordshoes2 for the beta!
Kris and Janet had another appointment with Dr. Boson. She expressed some concern that Kris's blood work was still showing increasing levels of antibodies and white blood cells. And, like Janet, she really didn't like the fact that she was losing weight instead of gaining.
"If things continue the way they are I'm going to have to insist you go on bed rest for the remainder of the pregnancy. In the meantime try eating several small meals a day. Even if all you can tolerate is something as bland as oatmeal. We'll supplement your nutritional needs with injections that Janet will administer."
"Why injections?" Kris asked.
"Because if you take them orally and then throw up they won't be doing you much good, will they?" Lettie answered.
"I see your point."
"Okay, I want you back here in four days to check your weight and blood work again, unless anything else comes up, in which case you should come in immediately."
Janet and Kris stood to leave.
"Janet, could you wait a minute, please?" Lettie asked.
Kris stepped out as Janet remained.
"I don't know how much longer Kris will be able to carry the baby. With the pregnancy now in the 20th week there's slim chance of viability."
"Not much of one," Janet said quietly.
"No, you're right. The longer she can sustain the pregnancy, the better the chances are for the baby. I just wanted you to know that I have the neonatal unit on alert. If anything happens, they'll be ready for you and Kris."
Janet's eyes watered. "Thank you."
Lettie nodded. "Now go spend some time with your wife. I'll have the supplements delivered to your house this afternoon."
~~~
Janet sat on the edge of the couch, bent down, and kissed her wife's forehead.
Kris opened her eyes and smiled. "Hey."
"Hey, baby. What do you want for lunch, love."
"Fresh air."
"What?"
"Let's go to the park."
"Kris, you're supposed to be taking it easy."
"I know that, Janet. I'm not suggesting anything more than a lazy picnic in the park. I just want to enjoy some fresh air and sunshine. I can rest on a blanket on the grass as well as I can here on the couch. Please. You heard what Dr. Boson said. I want to go while I still have a choice."
Janet didn't miss the pleading in her wife's voice. She gave Kris an understanding smile. "Alright. I'll get everything together and we'll go to the park."
"Thank you."
Janet got the picnic lunch together and placed it in their basket. She then grabbed a blanket and a small pillow. Of course she didn't let Kris carry anything as they walked to the park. Janet spread the blanket out under their favorite tree. After they were done eating Janet leaned against the tree and cradled Kris in her arms. The sound of Janet's heartbeat beneath her ear lulled Kris to sleep.
That's how Sam found them. "Nice day for a picnic," said the blonde as she approached.
Janet smiled and nodded. "Yes, it is," she said.
Sam then realized Kris was asleep. "Oh, sorry. I didn't realize she was asleep," she said softly.
"It's okay." Janet looked down at her wife and brushed some hair away from Kris's temple and caressed her cheek. "I don't think a marching band would wake her right now."
"Is she okay?"
Janet took a deep breath and let it out. "That depends on your definition of okay."
"Janet, it's only been seven months for me since you were... killed... and I can't sit here and pretend and tell you that I can just flip a switch and change the way I feel about you. I still love you... but I've always been your friend, and I still am. I'm here for you as your friend."
The doctor smiled. "I'm glad. Thank you, Sam."
The blonde nodded at the sleeping woman. "You're worried about her. I can tell."
Janet took another deep breath and nodded. "Yes, I am."
"What's wrong?"
"We don't know how much longer her body can sustain the pregnancy. If she were anyone else she would have already miscarried."
"What do you mean?"
Janet let out a sigh. "I guess I should start from the beginning. First off, Kris is only part Human. She has a mixture of alien DNA, so there was some difficulty in making our DNA compatible."
"Is that why you said you'd been trying to have a baby for couple of years?"
"Partly. I don't know if it's a result of her mixed heritage of not, but she's infertile. She has no ova. So when they were finally able to make our DNA compatible they fertilized six of mine. I miscarried the first four."
Sam was shocked to hear what the woman she loved had been through. "Oh, my god. I'm so sorry, Janet."
"My body kept rejecting the alien DNA." Sam couldn't keep the frown off her face and Janet saw it. "What is it, Sam?"
Sam hesitated but answered. "I'm sorry, Janet, but I can't believe someone who cares about you would put you through all that, that she would even ask it of you." The blonde lowered her eyes. "I never would have," she added softly.
Janet realized Sam misunderstood the situation. "Sam, you don't understand. Kris didn't ask anything of me. The baby was my idea. I want this."
The blonde was clearly surprised. "All the years I've known you and I never knew you wanted to have a baby."
The doctor gave the blonde a small smile. "I never did." She then looked down at her wife. "But I want hers," she said lovingly.
Sam had to swallow the lump that formed in her throat.
After a few moments of silence Janet continued. "Since I couldn't carry the baby we decided to have Kris try. The problem is her body just doesn't seem to want to be pregnant. We had to trick it into getting pregnant. She miscarried the first time at 11 weeks. This is her second pregnancy."
"Can't they fertilize some more eggs if she miscarries this time?"
Tear welled in Janet's eyes. "I can't ask her to go through this again, Sam. Her body is fighting the pregnancy like an infection. Her white blood cell count is climbing every day; she's developing antibodies; she's losing weight instead of gaining; she's throwing up half the time; she's only 20 weeks along and she's had contractions on four different occasions that would have resulted in a miscarriage if she hadn't been able to stop them; and she's getting weaker and weaker every day." A single tear slid down Janet's face.
Even in her sleep Kris sensed her wife's distress. Her body tensed and her breathing increased as if she were experiencing a bad dream. Janet caressed her wife's cheek, kissed her forehead, and then laid her own cheek on top Kris's head.
"Shhh, it's okay, love. I'm right here." [Just relax, beloved.]
When Kris settled down Janet dropped another kiss on her wife's forehead.
"You said Kris was able to stop her contractions. How?" Sam asked.
"Due to her alien heritage, and training in what she calls the mind-skills, she's able to have some conscious control over her body in ways that we don't. And she's able to heal much faster than Humans if she enters into a healing meditation."
"Like Teal'c's kelnorim?"
"It's similar, yes."
"So that's what you meant when you said if she were anyone else she would have already miscarried."
Janet nodded.
"She's literally been keeping the baby safe by force of mind over matter."
"Yes, but at a cost to her own health. As long as she's pregnant she can't go into a healing meditation to heal herself – it would lower her heart rate and respiration to a level too dangerous for the baby."
"I had no idea what you've been going through. I'm sorry." Sam paused. "I'm sure if the colonel had known–"
"No, Sam. I'm not ready to deal with him yet."
Sam knew when to retreat. She nodded. "Okay. Then let's talk about something else." She paused, not really sure what to talk about. "So, how long have you known Kris?"
Janet smiled. "We met the day I arrived here. She's actually one who revived me. She found my body near the wreckage of her ship. She revived me and healed my wounds."
"Her ship?"
"It had crashed. Apparently whatever or whoever brought me to this planet also brought her ship here. P3X-666 is on the opposite side of the galaxy from where they were flying. She said that all of sudden there was a planet in their path; it seemed to appear out of nowhere and they crashed – here."
"They? She wasn't alone?"
"No. Her wife Lena was with her. Lena's injuries were just too great. She died a few hours later. There was nothing we could do."
"Oh. So you two weren't..."
"No. We were just friends. It was over a year before either one of us ever went out on a date, and that was with other people. But eventually I realized what was right in front of me." Janet smiled at Sam. "At least it didn't take me seven years this time. I'm learning."
Even Sam had to smile at that. "And you got married."
Janet grinned. "Yep. I never thought I would after the last time."
"Well, considering what you told me about you ex-husband, I don't think you can hardly compare him to Kris."
The doctor looked at her wife. "You've got that right."
Kris woke up. "Did I hear someone mention my name?"
"Hey there, sleepyhead."
Kris opened her eyes to see her wife gazing down her very lovingly. Before she was able to say anything, Kris grimaced.
"What's wrong, love?"
"Your daughter has decided to turn my spleen into a punching bag."
"Oh, so she's mine when she's acting up, huh?"
"Oh course," Kris said with a smirk.
"Then why do you get to pick out her name?"
"Because it's my spleen."
Janet chuckled. "Well, I guess that's fair."
"You've picked out a name?" asked Sam.
Kris moved off of Janet and lay on her side next to her wife facing the blonde. "Yep."
Janet knew Kris's lower back was aching so she started rubbing it for her. "And she won't tell me," the doctor playfully complained.
"Well, it's not like you've told me what her middle name is going to be," Kris countered.
Sam looked at both women like they were crazy. "I don't believe this! How can the two of you not tell each other the names you've picked out for your daughter?"
They smiled at Sam. Then Kris sat up so she was facing her wife. She took Janet's hand in hers, giving it a squeeze. "Actually, I didn't want to say anything before now because I'm aware of the point of minimum viability, too." She lifted Janet's hand and kissed it. "Picking her name was very easy. She's to be named after her mother – her name is Elyssa."
Janet looked surprised but touched. "And she's to have your name as well – Kay," she said with a smile. She looked over at Sam with a smile. "Well, Sam, you're the first to know. Our daughter's name is going to be Elyssa Kay Fraiser."
"Elyssa Kay?"
"Janet's middle name and my last name before I changed it to Janet's," Kris explained.
"But I always thought your middle name was Elizabeth."
"That's what everyone assumes," Janet replied.
"How come I never knew your middle name?"
"Because growing up I never liked it."
Kris looked at the blonde. "Don't feel bad, Major. She didn't exactly tell me either."
"Then how–"
"Did I know?" Kris looked at her wife. "I take it you haven't told her everything yet?"
"Well, she knows you're not completely Human."
Kris looked at Sam again. "I have... some abilities that Humans don't, Major."
"Please, call me Sam. Janet said you're able to have some control over your body and can speed your healing process."
"Under certain circumstances, yes. I can also communicate telepathically through a mind-touch."
Sam looked surprised. "You can actually read somebody's mind?"
"It's a bit more complicated than that. It takes effort, and it's not something that's done lightly."
"Can you do it against somebody's will?"
Kris frowned. "Yes, but not only is it unethical, it's extremely unpleasant for both parties."
The blonde looked at Janet. "So I take it you let her read your mind... and that's how she found out your middle name?"
Janet could see the concern on Sam's face. "It's not quite what you're thinking, Sam." She looked at her wife. [We need to put this in terms she can understand and relate to... computers maybe.]
Kris looked at the blonde. "Think of the mind like a computer. All of Janet's knowledge, ideas, and memories are like files. It's not like my computer connected to hers and read all her files. We simply shared selected files. And Janet herself had control over which of her files were shared, just as I had control over which of my files were shared." She smiled. "I just happened to find out her middle name when one of the things she chose to share with me was a memory of her mother in which her mother addressed her by her full name. I don't think Janet even realized at the time that she'd let her secret out. Anyway, does that make it any clearer for you?"
Sam nodded, but it was obvious that the gears were turning in her head. "You told the colonel that by the laws of this world and of your homeworld that you and Janet are married. May I ask what is your homeworld?"
"I'm not sure I should answer that."
Sam was clearly confused by Kris's answer. "What do you mean?"
Kris closed her eyes and let out a sigh. "So you didn't get to this part."
"No, I didn't," Janet said wearily.
"I think we ought to go home and have this discussion there."
Janet nodded in agreement. Sam helped Janet gather everything up and carry the stuff back to the house. Janet and Kris walked arm in arm on the way back to the house. Once at home Kris started to help Janet put things away but Janet quickly stopped her.
"Uh uh. You're feeling woozy. I want you on the couch with your feet up. And you need to eat again. I'll bring you something as soon as I get everything put away." She gave Kris a 'wife' glare rather than a 'doctor' glare – which was even more effective.
"Yes, dear," Kris replied with a smirk and left the kitchen.
Even Sam chuckled as Kris made her way to the couch. "Wow, I guess you've got her trained," she said jokingly as she helped Janet put everything away.
"Actually, no." Janet frowned. "She gave in too easily." She fixed a small plate of food for Kris.
Sam followed Janet out into the living room. "Hey, wait a minute. How did you know Kris was feeling woozy?"
"I... she let me know."
"When?"
Janet didn't know how to answer and the blonde could tell something was up. "Okay, what's going on?"
Kris was the one to explain. "Remember that computer analogy I used?"
Sam nodded.
"Well, using the same analogy, things are different between Janet and me since we're married. It's like we have a permanent link between our computers. Either one of us can increase or decrease the bandwidth at will at any time. And the link cannot be broken, except by death."
"So you two can communicate telepathically with each other?"
"If we both choose to do so, but it's more than that. It's a bond that goes much deeper than can really be described. I can tell how Janet is feeling both physically and emotionally without asking, unless she chooses to block it from me, which she can. She can tell what I'm feeling unless I choose to block it from her. There is still privacy for the individual. She can't tell what I'm thinking if don't want her to any more than you can. She or I could forever block all thought and feeling from each other completely, and yet the bond would still provide an awareness of the other. At the other end of the spectrum is what happens when we both open the link wider. Not only can we communicate and tell how the other is feeling, it's possible to actually feel what the other is feeling."
"Sam, I actually know what it feels like to feel the baby move. I've felt it as if it was happening to me," said Janet.
"I... Holy Hannah... I don't know what to say. That's incredible." After a few moments she spoke again. "And that's what you wanted to tell me here at the house instead of at the park?"
Kris let out a sigh. "No. You asked me about my homeworld. I'm not sure I should tell you anything about it, because Humans aren't supposed to meet anyone from it, from your viewpoint, for about another 110 years. And it is even longer before any Human actually goes there."
"You're saying you're from the future?"
"From your future, yes."
"But is it our future or an alternate future? I mean if this planet doesn't exist in our reality on a regular basis then it's possible it is crossing through different realities."
Kris shook her head. "Already considered that. Everything here, including us, has the same quantum signature. We're all from the same reality."
Sam sat back, lost in thought. "So there's a lot you may know but can't tell us because of the time paradox."
"Temporal mechanics is always a pain in the ass."
The blonde shook her head as if to clear it. "Just don't tell the colonel. He'll be bugging you for the scores to every Super Bowl until, well, until your time."
"Well, it's not something we're going to solve right now," said Janet. "And you still haven't eaten, honey."
Kris looked at her wife. "I really can't, Janet. I won't be able to keep it down if I do."
Janet gave her a look of concern but nodded. "Okay. Lettie had the supplements sent over. I'll give you an injection." She took the plate back into the kitchen. She came back and gave her wife the injection. Janet then sat on the couch and had Kris lie down with her head in her lap. Kris was asleep in only a few minutes.
~~~
Sam became Kris and Janet's permanent house guest. She helped Janet around the house and kept her company while Kris slept – which she was doing more and more. Daniel and Teal'c took turns visiting on alternating days. The colonel knew he wasn't welcome and stayed away.
A month after the confrontation with Colonel O'Neill, Kris was napping in the bedroom. Janet had given her an injection about half an hour earlier. Janet and Sam were sitting in the living room talking and drinking lemonade. Sam was still trying to convince Janet to let Jack apologize to her. All of a sudden Janet froze and turned pale.
"Janet, what is it?"
"Something's wrong."
She put her glass down, got up, and ran into the bedroom. Sam was on her heels. Janet found Kris on the bed having some trouble breathing and running a high fever. "She's burning up! We've got to get her temperature down. Sam, go start filling the bathtub with tepid water and then come back and help me get her into the bathroom."
Sam ran into the bathroom, started the bath, and then came back. She and Janet got Kris up out of the bed and into the bathroom.
"Hold her steady for a moment," Janet said as she removed her shoes.
The doctor stepped into the tub and then they eased Kris into the water with her wife holding her from behind. Janet dipped a washcloth in the water and then squeezed it out over Kris's throat and chest. From where Sam kneeled at the side of the of the tub she helped to cup water over the overheated woman.
"Come on, baby, fight it. You can do it. Breathe... breathe nice and slow. Come back to me, love."
Kris opened her eyes halfway and tilted her head so she could look up at her wife. "Come back?" She tried to take a deep breath. "Where did I go?" She couldn't keep her eyes open.
Janet kissed Kris's forehead, as a way to gauge her fever as much to express her love. "You're running a high fever, honey. We're trying to get you cooled down." She continued to squeeze water from the washcloth over her wife's chest.
After a while Kris started to feel cold. "I'm c-cold."
"Sam, get the medkit from our bedroom. It's in the closet."
The blonde hurried into the bedroom and returned with a hard plastic case. "Is this it?"
"Yes." Janet opened it and took out the scanner. She scanned Kris and read the results. "101.2. Okay, it's time to get you to the clinic, honey. Help me get her up, Sam."
They got Kris up and out of the tub. Janet asked Sam to go ahead to the clinic and tell them she was bringing Kris in and to have Dr. Boson notified. Janet and Kris both changed into some dry clothes and started for the clinic. Kris was still rather out of it and Janet had her arm around her wife steadying her.
Meanwhile, Colonel O'Neill had decided it was time to finally bite the bullet. It was time to face Janet and beg her forgiveness. He saw Janet and Kris on their way to the clinic. He wasn't a doctor, but even he could see Kris wasn't in the best of shape and had lost weight since the last time he'd seen her.
Kris wavered. "Janet..."
Jack saw Kris was about to go down so he rushed over and scooped her up in his arms. "Where to, Doc?"
Janet gave him a look that indicated she was still irritated with him but was grateful for the assistance. Jack nodded, indicating he knew that they still had things to work out, but understood that taking care of Kris was the primary issue at the moment.
"This way," Janet said, and led the way to the clinic.
Jack carried Kris into the clinic. "Got an emergency here," he called out.
Dr. Boson was waiting them. "In here."
Directed by Dr. Boson, Jack laid Kris down on a gurney before stepping out of the room to wait with Sam. Kris's temperature had spiked again so Lettie and Janet packed cold compresses around her to cool her down again. Kris opened her eyes once her fever broke.
"Hey, honey," Janet said as she brush some hair back from her wife's forehead.
"Hey. Guess I got lost again."
Janet nodded. "Your fever spiked again."
Dr. Boson stepped up. "You certainly are making things interesting, Kris. We're going to have to keep a very close eye on you from now on. I'm afraid I'm going to have to admit you. You're on bed rest for the duration."
Kris merely nodded. She then closed her eyes and went to sleep.
Lettie looked at Janet. "I assume you're going to want to stay with her."
"Absolutely."
"Why don't you go on home and get your things while she's asleep. I'll make sure the staff knows to make up a second bed in her room for you."
"Thank you, Lettie."
~~~
When Janet exited the treatment room Jack and Sam both jumped up from their seats.
"Janet?" Sam asked.
"Her fever spiked again on the way here." She shot the colonel a look. "Thank you for your help."
Jack simply nodded. "How is she?"
"We were finally able to break her fever. Lettie is admitting her and putting her on full bed rest for the duration of the pregnancy. I've got to go home a get some things together."
"I'll give you a hand," offered Sam.
"Thank you."
"May I come by and see how she's doing tomorrow?" Jack asked with genuine concern.
Janet didn't have the energy to be mad at him so she nodded yes before leaving.
At the house Sam helped Janet pack some things for the stay at the clinic. Janet explained that she would be there with Kris until the baby was delivered. She then told Sam she was welcome to stay at the house in the meantime.
The next day Taran and Delsie brought the twins by for a few minutes and to offer their support. SG-1 also came by. When Janet finally agreed to talk with, or rather listen to, Jack, the others kept Kris company.
"Look, Doc, I'm sorry. I'm not proud of the way I handled things. I respect you, Doc; I always have."
"Apology accepted. I just don't have the energy to stay mad, and I have more pressing concerns right now. But make no mistake, Jack, I love the woman in that room," she said pointing to the door of Kris's room, "like I've never loved anyone else; she is a part of me, and she will always be my first priority. Don't you ever forget that."
"I won't. Maybe if I'd remembered to keep my priorities straight I wouldn't be divorced," he said quietly.
She turned to head back into Kris's room.
"And, Doc?"
Janet turned back to look at him.
"She's lucky to have you."
She gave him a small smile and shook her head. "I'm the lucky one, Jack."
~~~
Even with being in the clinic on full bed rest and with an IV providing constant nutrients Kris was losing the battle. She was getting weaker and weaker every day.
Three weeks after she'd been admitted Sam came by for a visit. She found Kris asleep. A nurse sitting with her told Sam that Janet had gone to the cafeteria to get something to eat. Sam went to the cafeteria and joined Janet. They were almost done eating when Janet suddenly dropped her fork.
"Oh, my god!"
"Janet, what wrong?"
"Kris!"
They both up and ran to Kris's room and were shocked by what they found. There was a team of doctors working on Janet's wife, led by Dr. Boson. There was what could only be described as a large pool of blood staining the sheets between Kris's legs. Dr. Boson handed off what was obviously the baby to a couple of doctors who placed it in a portable incubator and raced out of the room with their precious cargo.
"Get her to OR2, stat!" ordered Dr. Boson.
"Lettie?"
Dr. Boson paused only long enough to give Janet a quick answer. "I know exactly what your questions are. I've got to go in and stop the bleeding. Other than that I don't have any answers for you right now, Janet."
Janet swallowed and nodded in understanding. With that Dr. Boson hurried on her way. Sam accompanied Janet to the waiting area. Janet couldn't sit still and constantly paced. Sam made the excuse of going to the bathroom to slip out for a moment to radio the rest of SG-1 and let them know what had happened. They all came running, literally, and showed up in a matter of minutes. Janet acknowledged their presence but still just paced.
The colonel called Sam over. "So what do we know?"
"Nothing about the baby yet. They had to take Kris into surgery to stop the bleeding."
"What are the chances the baby will make it?" asked Daniel.
"I don't know. On Earth, with advanced neonatal care, 25 weeks is considered the point of minimum viability, but with very little success."
"How far along was Kris?"
"Less than 28 weeks. The medical technology here is more advanced than on Earth so maybe there's a chance." She shrugged. "I don't know."
About 40 minutes later a doctor came out to the waiting area. "Dr. Fraiser?"
"Yes?"
He spoke to her quietly for a few moments and then left. Janet just stood there without moving.
Sam got up and went over to her. "Janet?" When Janet didn't respond Sam got concerned. She walked around in front of her friend. "What is it, Janet?"
Janet finally looked up at Sam with watery eyes. "The baby's heart stopped before it was born. They've tried everything possible to revive her, but because the placenta was torn free in utero she was without oxygen too long." She spoke with the dispassion of a doctor, but her expression was that of a grieving mother.
When Sam reached out and took Janet in her arms the tears flowed freely. The men obviously knew something was wrong. Daniel caught Sam's eye and silently asked was it was. Sam silently mouthed back that it was the baby.
"Aw jeez," said Jack.
It was a couple of hours later when Dr. Boson came out. "Janet?" She pulled Janet aside and spoke with her. Janet knew Kris was still alive because of their bond, but Lettie let her know what had happened. "I'm afraid the bleeding was caused by some tearing of her uterus. I'm afraid there was nothing else I could do, Janet; I had to remove her uterus. I'm so sorry."
Janet shook her head. "I'd never let her go through this again anyway, Lettie. This was the last time no matter what."
"She's going to be under for a few hours yet, but you can sit with her in recovery when they get her settled."
"Thank you."
Janet let the others know that Kris was going to be okay and then went to sit with her wife.
~~~
Despite what Dr. Boson had said, Kris woke up not long after Janet joined her in recovery, though she was very groggy. "Beloved..."
"I'm right here, my love."
"S'ry about the baby... I tried..."
"Oh, honey, I know you did."
"I'll do better... next time... pr'mise..."
Tears started rolling down Janet's cheeks. "Shhh... Don't worry about that right now. You have to focus on getting better. Can you enter into a healing meditation? Can you do that for me?"
"Fuzzy... need your guidance..."
Janet took her wife's hand and placed it over her heart so Kris could feel Janet's heartbeat. [I'm right here, beloved. Just relax... remember slow, deep breaths. Concentrate on healing yourself.]
When Kris's heart rate dropped below a certain point an alarm sounded, bringing Dr. Boson and some nurses rushing in. "We're losing her!"
"No. It's alright," Janet assured them. "She's entered into a deep self-healing state. See – her pulse and respiration are steady, just very slow."
Lettie turned off the alarm and stared at Janet who was holding her wife's hand and running the fingers of her other hand through Kris's hair. It was the least worried she'd seen Janet in months. With a silent gesture she excused the nurses. "If Kris is able to enter into a self-healing state then why didn't she do so before?" she asked.
"Because it lowers her heart rate and respiration so low that it would have been detrimental to the baby," Janet explained.
Dr. Boson looked at the readings again. "I see what you mean. Do you know how long she'll be like this?"
Janet shook her head. "No, I've never seen her this ill before."
"Okay. We'll get her moved back into her room. I'll let you know as soon as we have her settled."
~~~
Janet found SG-1 still in the waiting room. She again told them Kris was going to be alright and that she was going to stay with her wife. The men left, but Sam hesitated.
"Are you sure everything's alright?" Sam asked.
Janet nodded. "She woke up briefly. And she's finally able to enter into a healing meditation. She'll be okay now."
"Did you tell her about the baby?"
"She already knew." Janet swallowed past the lump in her throat. "She promised she'd do better the next time." She closed her watery eyes and sat down.
"I thought you said this was the last time you were going to try."
Janet let out a sigh. "I would never allow her to go through this again, but she wouldn't hesitate to do it for me if I'd let her." She opened her eyes and looked up at Sam. "I didn't have the heart to tell her they had to remove her uterus."
Sam sat down next to her friend. "I'm so sorry, Janet."
A nurse came out. "Dr. Fraiser? Your wife has been moved into her room. You can go in now."
"Thank you."
~~~
After a full day in a healing meditation Kris was doing much better. The monitoring equipment signaled the change in her vitals, so Janet was smiling down at her when Kris opened her eyes.
"Hey."
"Hey, honey. How do you feel?"
"Better."
Janet looked at the monitors. "Your vital signs are certainly looking better. Do you think you can tolerate some light food?"
Kris nodded.
"Good. I'll be right back with some lunch then." Janet kissed her and left.
~~~
When Janet returned with lunch she found Lettie in the room drawing some of Kris's blood for some tests. Dr. Boson was clearly surprised at how quickly Kris was recovering. "If you keep improving at this rate, I may consider letting you convalesce at home sooner rather than later. Enjoy your lunch," Lettie said before leaving.
Janet sat on Kris's bed facing her with the bed table between them and they ate lunch together.
"Janet?"
"What?"
"I love you."
"I love you, too, honey."
"I'm sorry."
"Oh, baby, you have nothing to be sorry for. We always said that if it was meant to be it would work out, and if it wasn't, then that was okay, too. We said that no matter how things worked out that it would be okay."
Kris took a deep breath and slowly it out. "I know... I just wanted to make it happen for you."
"I know that, love. And I know just how hard you tried." Janet pushed the table away and moved closer. She reached up and caressed her wife's cheek and gazed into those impossibly dark eyes. "As long as I have you I have all I'll ever want or need. You're my heart and soul..."
"My beloved," they whispered in unison before kissing.
A few moments later there was a knock on the door. Janet and Kris released each other and looked over to see all of SG-1 standing in the doorway.
"I hope we're not intruding," said a smiling Daniel.
"No; come on in," said Kris.
"We just wanted to stop in and see how you were feeling," Sam said.
"I'm feeling better. Thank you."
"Kris Fraiser, it is good to see that you are much improved today."
"Thank you, Teal'c."
"Any idea on how long you'll be in here?" Jack asked.
"Not yet, but hopefully not long."
"But even after you are released you'll still have to take things easy for a while," Janet pointed out. "Your body's been through a lot."
"I know, but I'll need to get back into shape. And I need to get back to my students."
Janet gave her wife a stern look. "We'll talk more about this later."
~~~
Two days later Kris was released from the clinic. Janet stayed at home with her wife for three days, but because Kris was being good about not pushing things too hard the doctor went back to work.
Kris spent most of her days slowly getting her body back into shape by doing a lot of stretching. But she had lost some muscle mass and as a result she simply wasn't as strong and didn't have quite the stamina she did before. She really needed some good old-fashioned workouts to build up her strength and stamina. But Janet was still worried and didn't want Kris going to her school yet.
Sam was still their houseguest and was Janet's other set of eyes, keeping watch on Kris to make sure she didn't overdo things. Sam was also the voice of the colonel. She was supposed to convince Kris and Janet to come back to Earth with them.
tbc...
