Unintentional Confessions

by Kez

URL: http://www.area52hkh.net/ask/kez/confess.php
Summary: Daniel almost gets himself killed (again!!!), Jack gets drunk, stuff gets said

"Get him to the infirmary stat" Jack O'Neill called to Teal'c as soon as they were through the gate on Earth. Without offering a reply Teal'c made his was directly to the infirmary with an unconscious Daniel Jackson in his arms.

"Dr Frasier, Daniel Jackson has been injured, he requires medical assistance" the Jaffa said as he set Daniel down on the nearest bed.

"What happened?" Janet Frasier asked as she began examining her patient "He was hit by a Zat gun at close range" Sam Cater said coming into the room.
"How is he?" she asked concerned for her friend "I don't know yet, how close was the blast?" Janet asked Sam "Can't have been more than three metres away" she offered looking bleakly at her friend lying pale on the bed.

The two continued to watch as Janet worked on their friend for over half an hour "He'll take a while to wake up but he should be completely fine in a day or two" Frasier finally said putting Sam and Teal'c at ease. "Thanks Janet, we better go tell General Hammond" Cater said and she and Teal'c headed towards the Generals office.

"Colonel, I know you want to go and check on Dr Jackson but right now I need to know what happened" General Hammond said. "I know Sir...I just, can you at least call down and find out how he is?" Jack asked his eyes filled with concern for his team-mate, his friend, his... don't even go there O'Neill Jack mentally shook himself.

Knock, knock "Come in" Hammond called when the door was knocked. "Major Carter, how's Dr Jackson?" the General asked knowing Carter wouldn't be there if she had nothing to report.

"Unconscious Sir but alive, Dr Frasier said he should wake up in a few hours, and hopefully should be back on his feet in a few days" Carter said, noting the look of utter relief on O'Neill's face. Geez would the two of you just admit how you feel already she thought but knew it probably wasn't gonna happen.

"Sir, Major Carter and Teal'c can fill you in for now, permission to go to the infirmary" Jack pleaded with his eyes. "all right Colonel, but I want your report by 1800" Hammond said and Jack nodded and was out the door without another word.

Jack sat by Daniel for hours watching and waiting, seems he was always doing that with Daniel, waiting to see if this time would be the time the Daniel died and Jack lost his world, again.

When Charlie had died, Jack had died with him, not literally but on the inside Jack was dead, and it would have been literal as well if it hadn't been for a certain pain in the neck archaeologist, with baby blue eyes.

Jack had been ready to die, had wanted it but Daniel wouldn't give up, and he had forced Jack back to life, almost as if he were a sarcophagus for the heart.
"Colonel, he won't wake up for another few hours yet, why don't you go get some sleep i'll call you the minute there is any sign of him waking" Janet said coming over and taking note of Daniel's vitals.
"I..." Jack was about to protest but changed his mind, nodded and stood up, "I think i'm gonna head home, i'll be in again tomorrow" he said leaving before Janet could reply.

Janet was worried, Jack never left the base when Daniel was hurt, of course she couldn't blame him for wanting to go, she knew how the Colonel felt, it was a subject she and Sam had discussed quite a lot, she guessed even the Colonel could only take so much.

Janet looked down when she heard a croak from Daniel "Well look who woke up" Janet smiled "Nurse go and get the Colonel, he shouldn't have left yet" Janet said to the nurse standing on the other side of the infirmary.

"How you feeling Daniel?" she asked. "Like I just got shot" he replied, hanging around Jack O'Neill so much had done wonders for his sarcastic nature.

"Sorry Doctor, Colonel O'Neill already left the base" the nurse reported as she came back in the infirmary a few minutes later. Sighing Janet looked pitifully at Daniel "Sorry Daniel, he said he'd be back tomorrow though and knowing the Colonel tomorrow will be in about..." she looked at her watch "4 hours" she said smiling.

The number of times Jack had snuck back into the infirmary just after midnight, claiming that it was already tomorrow couldn't be counted on the fingers of the whole base let alone one hand. Daniel smiled a little and nodded "Sure" Daniel said and closed his eyes going back to sleep.

The next two days Daniel had to stay in the infirmary, and even though he was not short of visitors, between Sam, Teal'c and General Hammond he was lucky if he got enough time alone to go to the bathroom, the one person he wanted to see did not come. Jack hadn't been back on base since he'd left two nights ago, and he wasn't answering his phone, or his door.

"Well Daniel you can go home, but I want to leave it another day or so before you go back to active duty" Janet said smiling at him. "Thanks Janet" Daniel acknowledged and she let him go with a bottle of pills and instructions to take it easy.

Daniel had to laugh a little, take it easy indeed, not likely, he had a mission and he wasn't going to take anything easy until it was over with, he was going to talk to Jack and find out why he hadn't so much as called during the past two days.

Jack's House

Daniel knew he should have at least tried knocking first, but he had a feeling he wouldn't get an answer so he didn't bother, instead he used the key that Jack had never asked him to return and let himself in. "Jack, I know your here, where are you?" Daniel called moving into the living room.

"Go 'way Dan'el" a slurred voice came from behind the couch. "Jack, have you been drinking? In the middle of the day" Daniel part asked, part observed. "Day, nig't don't matt'r, just hav' to fo'get" Jack slurred standing up behind the couch, holding on to keep his balance.

Daniel took in the man before him, he was wearing wrinkled clothes, and evidently hadn't shaved in a couple of days but more than that Daniel could see Jack had been crying. "Geez Jack have you looked in the mirror, what the hell is wrong with you?" Daniel asked him.

"Just tryin' to forget Danny, gotta forget" Jack said, he looked like he was about to cry again but turned away before Daniel could see. "Just go Daniel, I don't want you here" Jack said, the words cutting Daniel to the bone, but still he didn't move, something was bothering Jack and if he could help he would, he wouldn't give up on Jack, no way.

"Jack come on, talk to me, I can see something is wrong..." Daniel was cut of, "wrong, you wanna know what's wrong Danny you are what's wrong" Daniel went to say something but Jack cut him of again.

"You go through the Gate and you forget that not everyone we met is gonna be friendly like P7X-567, you almost got killed Daniel, again, your a bloody liability, but still I keep you on the team, cause you are a good man, hell your my best friend and I...You know what it doesn't matter anymore, I quit, the SGC can find a new hero, I just don't give a rats ass" Jack said walking to grab a beer from the fridge.

"Jack..." Daniel voice cracked and he fought to hold back the tears, he'd been hurt before but Jack had never reacted like this, he looked everywhere but at Jack and then he saw it, on the floor near where Jack had been a picture of Charlie and then he knew.

Jack came back from the kitchen and Daniel looked at him "Oh Jack I...I'm so sorry, I forgot I..." Daniel didn't know what to say.

"I forgot too Daniel, I mean not that he was dead, but that it was the anniversary of his death, I didn't even remember Daniel."

"I fucking well forgot all about it and then you got shot and I remembered and I thought I was gonna lose you too, but I didn't and your OK but next time you might not be and I might never get to tell you, but I can't tell you cause you'd hate me and..." Jack stopped and turned away again and flopped down on the couch taking a long drink form his beer.

"Jack, I could never hate you" Daniel said sitting beside him, "you can always tell me anything" he said looking Jack in the eyes. oh God it can't be but...is it...could he? Daniel's thoughts whirled, he could swear that was love in Jack's eyes.

"Not this Daniel, never this...Please Danny just go, i'll be fine, I just need to forget for a little while" Jack begged Daniel to go.

"No Jack, I won't leave you alone like this" Daniel said his jaw stubbornly set and his eyes daring Jack to challenge him, but Jack didn't he just drank some more "then you better get a beer, cause the only thing i'm gonna be doing is drinking, I don't want to talk" Jack said knowing Daniel wouldn't just leave.

"I don't like beer Jack you know that, talk to me Jack Please" it was Daniel's turn to beg. "I can't Daniel why can't you just except that and go" Jack sighed, he was so tired.

Daniel looked at the defeated look in Jack's eyes, and made the choice, if he was wrong and Jack didn't want him, he'd go, leave the SGC and never bother Jack again, but if he was right... make your move Jackson, its now or never he told him self and took a deep breath.

"I can't just go Jack, see I love you Jack and if I go then I won't even get to see you anymore and I don't know if I could handle that" Daniel said honestly.

Jack's eyes shot up, shock clearly evident in them as he tried to decided whether or not Daniel was telling the truth, or if her was just playing with him. "I...What?" Jack asked still not believing what he was hearing.

"I said I love you Jack O'Neill, as in i'm in love with you, as in I want to hold you and kiss you and make love to you all night long, and quite frankly all day long as well" Daniel said.

Well if your gonna blow the best friendship you ever had, you might as well do a good job of it Daniel though, deciding that he had indeed been wrong and that Jack didn't feel the same.

"Wow" Jack muttered under his breath, and Daniel being Daniel hadn't heard right and had assume Jack had said 'go'.

"I'll give the General my resignation first thing tomorrow and then i'll be out of your hair, i'm so sorry Jack, I never meant to fall in love with you, it just happened, but I can't say i'm sorry about it because loving you has been one of the greatest things in my life even though I know you'll never feel the same" Daniel said.

His eyes filling with tears, as he silently prayed that maybe just maybe by some miracle Jack would change his mind and let him stay, let them keep their friendship at least, but nothing came forward, so Daniel turned around and walked towards the door, and away from the man he loved.

"Daniel, get your ass back here now" Jack suddenly called as Daniel opened the front door. Daniel turned and Jack was standing in the hall with him looking at him waiting for Daniel to do as he was told, hoping that for once he would do as he was told.

Daniel closed the door moving away from it but still staying a good few steps away from Jack, cause for some reason he had a thought that Jack was gonna kill him. "I said here, NOW" Jack ordered, pointing to a space about a half a step in front of him.

Daniel moved forward slowly, afraid of what was to come, he could face down Apophis and not blink an eye, but this man in front of him scared him, because he knew Jack had more power over him than anyone else ever could.

Jack stared at him, but Daniel kept his eyes cast down not daring to look Jack in the eyes and see the disgust and hatred there. "Aww hell" Jack said his hand coming up to cup Daniel's head and raise his face to look at him.

Daniel look scared, scared, he thinks i'm gonna hate him Jack realized and smiled a little, hadn't he thought the exact same thing.

"Danny" Jack breathed out, barely able to form words, and even though he was more of an action man he knew Daniel was a man of words, and if this was gonna work he had to use words. Daniel looked at him, blue eyes filled with tears, he was scared, but at the same time the look in Jack's eyes gave him hope.

Jack let his hand drop and instead took Daniel's hand in his and walked towards the living room, pulling them both down on the couch he looked at Daniel and smiled slightly. "I don't hate you Danny" Jack whispered, just loud enough for Daniel to hear.

"I...Ok Jack" Daniel was shocked he really had expected Jack to be mad, but he didn't look mad at all, "If your not angry...?" Daniel let the question trail, he need to know but didn't know how to ask.

"I'm not good with words Daniel, your the linguist, and a dam good one at that" Jack smiled as Daniel faced flushed, Jack rarely if ever praised Daniel's work anymore, infact he rarely ever had.

"I don't know exactly what to say here, but I guess I have to say some thing so i'll give it a try" Jack said, his voice calm, even though he was anything but. Daniel nodded and Jack took a breath before he started.

"You know your my best friend Daniel, when we first met...hell I was ready to call it a day, quite honestly the only thing I wanted was to die and get it over with, but you, heck Danny you gave me a reason to live again, you convinced me to keep going" Jack paused letting what he'd said sink in.

"All this time, you've been here Danny and you have no idea how many times I just wanted to say to hell with it and give up, but I didn't cause of you. You made me believe again Danny, you made me believe that life is worth living and that not everything is bad, you made me love again Daniel even when I didn't want to, and I do love Daniel" Jack stopped again, this was it the final chance to back out he didn't have to do this...

"I love you" he whispered.

Daniel was shocked he couldn't believe it, Jack had said, had he misheard, was it just his wishful thinking? Jack knew what Daniel was thinking and before Daniel had time to process it all he leaned in and kissed him.

Warm sort lips met Daniel's own, pressing lightly, so soft, so gentle Daniel barely felt them at all. "Danny?" Jack asked, one word so much meaning, 'are you ok?', 'do you really want this?' 'do you really love me back?' so much to say not nearly enough words.

"I...Jack...Oh Jack Please don't let this be a dream" Daniel begged throwing him self into Jack's arms which came around him tightly holding him with in there warm embrace.

"No dream Danny, or if it is all I can say is let me sleep forever" Jack smiled. "Love you Jack" Daniel mummered against Jack's neck, finally realizing it was real, Jack was here, he loved him.

Jack felt Daniel's lips against the soft skin of his neck pressing lightly, before teeth joined in nibbling gently at his pulse point, causing shivers up his spine. "Danny, I want this but not like this, I want it to be perfect" Jack's voice broke Daniel's concentration.

"Nothing can ever be completely perfect Jack" Daniel said, surprising Jack, has Daniel really changed so much he doesn't even believe himself anymore? he thought, not liking that he knew the answer was yes.

"Maybe, maybe not, but we can sure as hell try" Jack said lifting Daniel's head from his shoulder and pressing their lips together with more tenderness than he ever thought himself possible of.

So soft Jack thought as he kissed Daniel, oh how he'd dreamed of this, but nothing in his dreams could ever compare to the reality, Daniel was perfect, together they were a perfect fit.

Daniel pulled back and stood up, and for a second Jack thought it was all a dream and that Daniel was gonna leave, but Daniel just held his hand out and smiled. It was the kind of smile Daniel rarely ever showed to anyone, the kind that those privileged enough to see where delighted by, and those lucky enough to say they made him smile like that would give everything to be able to make him smile like that again.

"Jack?" Daniel looked worried when Jack didn't take his hand, thinking Jack maybe didn't want this after all. "Sorry Danny, just admiring the view, I love it when you smile like that" Jack admitted, shocking himself and Daniel both, Jack never talked like that, and if he though like that he never admitted it to anyone, the fact that he admitted it to Daniel made Daniel smile again.

"Come on Jack" Daniel said taking Jack's hand finally and walking backwards into the bedroom so he didn't have to look away from Jack.

The two didn't want to lose contact, but they both needed more so they separated for a few moments just long enough to strip the clothes from themselves before standing before each other, nothing hidden.

"So beautiful" Jack whispered as his hand grazed down Daniel's flank, causing a shiver, and a slight moan from the younger man.

Daniel smiled moving forward eyes taking in the man before him, "Oh Jack, How much I dreamed of this, wanted it so much, never dreamed it could be this good. Your so amazing Jack do you know that" Daniel said looking honestly into Jacks eyes.

"You would say that, you always think old things are nice" Jack half joked, he was by no-means unattractive, but compared to Daniel he was like a rock beside a diamond. "Oh Jack don't do that, your beautiful Jack, so beautiful" Daniel said, eyes flashing over the body in front of him.

"Yeah if you ignore the wrinkles, and the scars" Jack said leaning into kiss Daniel hoping to distract him, but Daniel being Daniel was having none of it. "Jack lie down on the bed for me" Daniel ordered, slightly surprised when with only a small amount of reluctance Jack complied.

Daniel moved beside him sitting down with his legs crossed eyes open and honest as he looked at Jack. "Everyone of those scars tell a story don't they Jack?" Daniel asked rhetorically, "they tell a story about the person you were, the person you are now, and how you got here, how you got to me, everyone of those scars played a part in bringing you to me Jack, and they are beautiful, you are beautiful" Daniel said moving to lie full length beside Jack, but instead of kissing him like Jack expected he leaned up and kissed his eye brow.

Daniel started mapping ever scar on Jacks body, from head to toe, kissing nipping and licking at every one of them, turning him over and bestowing the same treatment on his back, driving Jack wild with need. "Danny please" Jack said again and again, unable to form any other thoughts let alone words.

"What do you want Jack?" Daniel asked rolling Jack onto his back again and kissing him lightly on the mouth. "Don't care, just please Danny, I need..." Jacks eyes told Daniel what he needed, but Daniel wasn't giving in that easily.

"Tell me Jack, tell me what you want, what you need Jack, tell me" Daniel pleaded Jack to trust him and let him know. "I...I want you inside me Danny, please, need you so bad" Jack begged eyes filling with tears, he was so close but he needed this and so it would seem did Daniel from the look that he had in his eyes.

"Are you sure Jack?" Daniel asked, typical really, here he was ready to burst with need, having driven them both crazy with want and need and still he was thinking of someone else first.

"Daniel Jackson I swear if you don't make love to me right this god dam minute i'm gonna go and ask Teal'c" Jack said causing Daniel to laugh, and that started Jack of as well. Here they were both rock hard, and needing to get release so badly it almost hurt and they were laughing so hard that it did hurt.

Jack stopped laughing suddenly eyes finding Daniel's instantly as Daniel's suddenly wet finger breached the tight ring of flesh in his most concealed place. "Ohhh..." Jack opened his mouth but no words would form, the finger kept moving, slow even movements, leaving Jack writhing on the bad begging for more, more fingers joined the first until Jack was stretched as wide as Daniel could get him.

"Please Danny, can't last much longer" Jack said between gritted teeth, face red and sweat dripping of him as he strained to keep control. Daniel moved forward, slicking his erection with the same stuff he used on his fingers, which turned out to be a bottle of sunscreen Jack had in his pocket from the last mission.

Both men held on tightly Jack trying to keep as relaxed as possible and Daniel straining not to push to fast and hurt Jack. "Oh God Daniel" Jack half screamed once Daniel was bruried in him to the hilt. "Geez Jack, so tight, oh God I can't last long like this" Daniel said into Jacks ear as he nibbled along Jack's jaw waiting for Jack to become use to the intrusion.

Jack's hips began to move pushing against Daniel, giving Daniel the signal it was ok to move. Both men found the rhythm quickly, moving slowly, pushing each other towards the edge. Blue eyes staring into brown, a thousand words being spoke without mouths ever opening.

Higher, faster, the end was so close, the world fell away and both screamed out as they fell over the edge of a cliff they had been on the edge of for far to long. Eyes never leaving their partners, looking within the very soul of the other.

Daniel clasped apon Jack, breathing ragged, heart beating so fast he could swear it was gonna break out of his chest, knowing Jack was the same beneath him.

"Daniel?" Jack asked as he moved slipping from Jack and rolling onto his back pulling Jack with him so that they lay wrapped in each others arms. "Yeah" Daniel said kissing the top of the grey head beneath his chin. "That was, that never happened before to me i mean" Jack said his head snuggling into Daniel's shoulder.

"I know Jack" Daniel said, but Jack shook his head, "I don't mean that, although that too but I mean, we came at the exact some moment Daniel, it was intense, i've never felt that before" Jack said. Daniel smile, "Me either Jack" he whispered back.

"You know in some cultures in the past the father use to choose ten possible suitors for his daughter and all would have her for one night, the one that had his orgasm closest with the women would be her husband, they believed that if the to had an orgasm at the same moment it meant they were soul mates, destined to be together" Daniel told him.

Go figure, even post nookie the guys still a walking history book Jack smiled into Daniel's neck, "I think I like that idea, guess this means your stuck with me huh Danny boy" Jack said. "I can't think of anyone i'd rather be stuck with" Daniel smiled and the two drifted of to sleep, their dreams had been answered and now it was time for new dreams, perhaps if they were lucky enough those would come true as well.