New Friends?
by Kez
URL: http://www.area52hkh.net/ask/kez/nfriends.php
Summary: Funny who you meet in chat rooms ain't it?
In a apartment in Colorado Springs
*Signing in DrCoffeeBean chat room #3457 Local, Colorado Springs*
MrMunchie: Hey Doc, been a while, where you been hiding?
DrCoffeeBean: Hey. Not hiding Munch, was just away with work
KittyGalore: Hey Doc, glad to see you back
KittyGalore: **Purrs**
DrCoffeeBean: Hey Kit, good to see you, how's the family?
KittyGalore: Same old Doc, the littlest one has a bad bug, the Doctor says it's making the rounds, nothing he can do.
DrCoffeeBean: Sorry to hear that Kit.
In a House across town
*Signing in StarFlyer chat room #3457 Local, Colorado Springs*
KittyGalore: Hey StarFlyer, ain't seen you about here before.
StarFlyer: Em... No, first time I've ventured into a chat room.
StarFlyer: **Blushes**
MrMunchie: Sorry guys, I gotta go, the old man is home.
DrCoffeeBean: Not a problem Munch, tell him I said Hi, and I'll ttyl.
MrMunchie: sure thing Doc, c ya later.
*MrMunchie has signed out of this room*
KittyGalore: God and Dang it, I g2g as well Doc, the little one is hollering.
DrCoffeeBean: Sure all leave me alone why don't you, ahh well, c u latter Kit, hope that Kenny gets better.
KittyGalore: thanks Doc, c ya around.
*KittyGalore has signed out of this room*
DrCoffeeBean: So StarFlyer what made u come in here?
StarFlyer: Em... a dare really, from a friend, long story, not telling.
DrCoffeeBean: lol, well thank your friend from me huh; otherwise I'd be all alone in here.
StarFlyer: Not many around are there?
DrCoffeeBean: Yeah well it's a Friday, though the week is busier, but this is the last day of I will get for a while so...
StarFlyer: I know what you mean, I work for the military, and the hours can be, anti-social to say the least.
DrCoffeeBean: Snap, with the military thing, although I'm not a soldier, what branch of the military?
StarFlyer: Air Force, U?
DrCoffeeBean: well I work with all kinds, Air Force, Marines etc etc etc.
StarFlyer: u a shrink?
DrCoffeeBean: Hell no, and I can't stand them neither. I am a Linguist by profession, well linguist/archeologist/anthropoligist.
StarFlyer: Really, that must be em... interesting, look sorry I have to go, I'll em maybe see you around.
*StarFlyer has signed out of this room*
Jack O'Neill signed out of the chat room before he gave the person on the other side chance to reply.
Daniel, it had to have been him, I mean how many people can there be in Colorado with three PhD's in those specific subjects? Not many, infact one, Dr Daniel Jackson, which would explain the name as well, Daniel was nothing if not a coffee addict.
Daniel Jackson's Apartment.
"Well that was strange, hmm military!"
Daniel logged off, no point in sitting around with no one to talk to, might as well go get some work done, or em... maybe a cup of coffee first.
"Translate this Doctor Jackson, tell me what this represents Doctor Jackson, tell me the meaning of life Doctor Jackson, God I hate the military" Daniel said sitting with the fresh brewed coffee and starting to sift though the work he had brought home.
He hadn't had any proper time of in months, and though everyone assumed he was a work alcoholic, and ok they were right, but even he liked some time off occasionally, the odd hour or two in a chat room online didn't count.
One Week Later
Jack had spent the better part of the week hiding from Daniel, wondering if he knew who is was in the chat room that night, he didn't really give much away, and Daniel hadn't mentioned it.
"Maybe he might be there again tonight" Jack thought aloud, "not that I care" he added, thinking that talking to your self really wasn't a sign of being sane, but ahh well, after everything he'd been though, people expected him to be a little nuts.
"I am not going online to see if he is there, I am going on to check my e-mails is all, and if I happen to accidentally log into that chat room again, well that's fine but I ain't doing it just cause of him" Jack said as he powered up the computer and set it to dial the net.
*Signing in StarFlyer chat room #3457 Local, Colorado Springs*
DrCoffeeBean: Not a chance guys, it'll never happen. Hi again StarFlyer.
StarFlyer: Hi.
MagicCookie: Hey there StarFlyer.
StarFlyer: Hi
DrCoffeeBean: Your not a very verbal person are you SF?
StarFlyer: You'd be amazed how vocal I can be.
DrCoffeeBean: I doubt it.
MagicCookie: Dang, the SO is home, better go play the dutiful boyfriend, see ya later DCB, nice to meet you SF.
*MagicCookie has signed out of this room*
DrCoffeeBean: If I didn't know better, I'd think it was strange that everyone keeps leaving when you enter, but I'm not particularly superstitious that way.
StarFlyer: Hmmmm, so what was that you were saying would never happen when I came in?
DrCoffeeBean: Nothing really, just em... well a relationship thing.
StarFlyer: Relationship thing, maybe I can help?
"Jack what are you even thinking asking him about this, you know you'll regret it" Jack thought to himself as he sat watching the screen in front of him.
DrCoffeeBean: I doubt it, I'm em... Gay, well I guess more accurately Bi, but I've only ever been with two women so... Well anyway I know the military mindset on that stuff.
"Oh yeah Jack wonderful idea to ask him about his love life... NOT"
StarFlyer: Not all the military are like that.
"No it's true really, especially the military officers that are Gay themselves."
DrCoffeeBean: I know.
StarFlyer: So problem?
"Jack, shut up now before you really dig yourself a hole"
DrCoffeeBean: Well I said I work with the military, and my team CO, well I don't know but he seems to hate me recently, we use to be friends but now... ever since my wife died he seems to hate me, and I stupid as I am, I am in love with him, so you see you really didn't want to know.
"Daniel? In Love? With me? Daniel in love with me? Holy Hannah"
StarFlyer: That's em tough, are you sure he hates you? I mean maybe you are just misreading him.
DrCoffeeBean: Stupid I may be, but blind, well no not completely, every time I speak he snaps, every suggestion I make is instantly rebuffed, he either hates me, or is secretly in love with me *lol*, and since I know he is as straight as die, and twice as stubborn as any mule I ever met then the first is the only logical answer.
StarFlyer: Not everything is logical you know, I mean look at Spock, suppose to be a logical guy, yet killed his Captain just cause he wanted to get of with some skinny little tart, and then he cut her loose, not very logical now is it.
DrCoffeeBean: LOL, I hate Trek, but Jack, that's my CO loves it, you kinda remind me of him, what's your name?
"Name, em... Sam, naw, to easy, oh Jacob, ok too formal, Jake? Yeah sure that works"
StarFlyer: Jake, yours?
DrCoffeeBean: Daniel
StarFlyer: Nice to meet you Daniel.
DrCoffeeBean: Likewise Jake, so what do you do for fun outside of work?
StarFlyer: There is an outside of work? Sorry lame humour, not much really, just mess around the house, play Chess with myself etc, etc, etc... I'm a very boring person.
DrCoffeeBean: You seem interesting enough to me, so married?
StarFlyer: Divorced, what is this? 20 questions?
DrCoffeeBean: Sorry inherently curious, it will be my downfall no doubt.
StarFlyer: Curiosity killed the archaeologist?
DrCoffeeBean: How did you know I was an archaeologist?
StarFlyer: You told me.
DrCoffeeBean: You remembered? Good memory.
"Yeah well it's kinda hard to forget the professions of your best friend"
StarFlyer: Only when I want to have
DrCoffeeBean: LOL, em sorry but I have to go, I have work early tomorrow.
StarFlyer: Sure, I'll maybe see you around again sometime.
DrCoffeeBean: Yeah, bye Jake.
*DrCoffeeBean has signed out of this room*
StarFlyer: Bye Danny
Ok, time to process, Daniel is in love... with me, holy fucking Hannah twice over! Am I the luckiest son of a bitch alive or what? Although on the down point he thinks I hate him, and I can't exactly go into work and suddenly start being Mr Nice or he'll suss me right out, so the question is what do I do?
I SHOULD as a military officer ignore it, and pretend absolutely nothing is going on, and that I never found out about Daniel's feelings for me, and that I infact never had any feelings for him, that's what I SHOULD do.
What I WANT to do, well now that's another thing altogether, I'm thinking I'd like to tell him I love him, kiss him senseless and lock us both in my bedroom with a years supply of lube.
Can't do either, cause the first option would pretty much kill me, and more than likely hurt him more than I already have "I am such an Asshole", and the second would scare him away faster than a Kangaroo on speed.
So subtly? Can I do it, and if so, HOW can I do it.
Strategizing is something I can do blindfolded, so I just need to find a strategy that won't send him running for the hills and will with any luck at all keep me on this side of the Leavenworth prison bars.
Ok so my strategy, Hmmmm... Step One? Start small and slowly work my way from major pissy CO to friend again on base, must keep the gestures small and unobvious, so that might take awhile.
Step Two? 'Jake' Can start talking to Daniel more, building up a trust and friendship there, hopefully to the point Daniel will agree to meet 'him'
Step Three? Hopefully 'Jake' will meet Danny, and I can explain everything, apologise for being a class a jerk, tell Daniel I love him, and with any kinda luck on this planet or any other one, get laid.
Well ok I don't need to get laid, I'd frankly be happy with a kiss, and maybe a cuddle, but he is a very hot guy, and I gotta think big on this, its too important to think small scale.
One Week Later
COLONEL JACK O'NEILL Journal Week One.
Ok why would I keep a journal? Well easy, I want records of this cause then if all works out I can show it to Daniel and we can laugh about it, and if it doesn't I can show it to Daniel and it may convince him I really love him.
So I am starting to make progress in the less pissy CO area, I didn't yell at him once today, infact I've yelled at him less and less every day this week, thankfully he hasn't been getting suspicious yet.
I even listened to him when he was talking about some alien temple thing yesterday, well for all of ten mins anyway, like I said don't want him getting too suspicious.
Sam invited us all round to her place tonight, Daniel turned her down, so I did as well, I'm kinda hopping he'll go online so 'Jake' can talk to him.
Col. Jack O'Neill
*Signing in StarFlyer chat room #3457 Local, Colorado Springs*
DrCoffeeBean: Hi.
StarFlyer: Hi, this place is quite.
DrCoffeeBean: Yeah just little old me.
StarFlyer: Nothing wrong with just little old you.
DrCoffeeBean: Some people would disagree.
StarFlyer: Some people are idiots.
DrCoffeeBean: I can agree with that. ;)
StarFlyer: So how's it going?
DrCoffeeBean: Good thanks, this week has been a good week.
StarFlyer: Glad to hear it.
DrCoffeeBean: What about you?
StarFlyer: Can't grumble, or if I can, I won't. No this week has been good for me too actually.
DrCoffeeBean: Good.
Ok 'Jake' time to engage in some meaningful conversation, em...
Ok so sue me I am not good at this stuff.
StarFlyer: So how are things going with you CO?
DrCoffeeBean: I don't know, ok I guess, he's been less snappy with me this week, and he listened to me for a whole ten minutes the other day. I think he must be getting docile in his old age. lol.
StarFlyer: lol, anything is possible, how old r u? If u don't mind me asking.
DrCoffeeBean: I don't, I'm 36.
StarFlyer: and this old age CO?
DrCoffeeBean: well he might mind me telling, but since he'll never know, he's 45.
StarFlyer: that's older.
DrCoffeeBean: Yes, but he looks very good for his age. Very, Very Good
StarFlyer: I take it u like older men then?
DrCoffeeBean: Always have, everyman, bar one I have ever been with has been at least a year or two older.
StarFlyer: Well that's handy, the older the men are the less mature they are. lol
DrCoffeeBean: Jack is pretty mature, he just forgets it sometimes.
StarFlyer: lol
DrCoffeeBean: what about u, you know what I do, what age I am, my sad tale of unrequited love, and all I know about u is that u work for the military.
StarFlyer: not much to tell, I'm not very interesting.
DrCoffeeBean: come on, tell me SOMETHING at least.
COLONEL JACK O'NEILL Journal Week Two.
I think on a grand scale of one to ten, it's going around 6, but its getting better. 'Jake' has talked to Daniel three times this week, and Daniel has been a lot brighter in work, every morning after.
As me I have managed not to snap, well ok ONCE, but he DID almost get himself shot, it fucking scared me okay.
I actually had lunch with him the other day, alright so it was Teal'c that invited him, and then ducked out at the last second, leaving just us two (really must get something to thank him for that), but I still did it.
We talked, for a full fifteen minutes with no uncomfortable silences, until HE ducked out, claiming work as his motive.
I have invited everyone over here tomorrow night, even Janet, Cassie, and George, even if they are suss, they won't complain about a free meal, and free drink.
Daniel tried to say no, but I enlisted Cassie to get him to come, sneaky, and underhanded, well yes, but still, I'm doing all this for a good cause.
Next step: get Daniel to agree to hang out with me, outside of work, and all alone. Can it be done? I hope so.
Col. Jack O'Neill
"Hey Daniel."
"Oh Hi Jack... what did I do?"
"Nothing, that I know of why?"
"Never mind, what do you want."
Ahh you nearly slipped their Danny, nearly ruined all my careful planning, I am so glad I can play dumb so well. Though sometimes I think Daniel suspects its all a farce, which it isn't not really, I am nowhere NEAR as smart as him.
"I thought you might come by my place tonight, if you aren't busy, I em... well kinda wanted a hand with something." I tell him, and I do, I need to get it done, and I want to show I trust him, need him in my life, so, as much as this needs to be private, I know I can share it with Daniel.
"Oh?" well I knew he was going to ask.
"I... Sara sent some of Charlie's things over, she and her new husband have a baby on the way, they em, had to clear out Charlie's old room, and well I need some help sorting through the stuff. I wouldn't ask, but well, I... don't want to do it alone." I really play the sad card on that last part, not exadturating, just letting my real emotions show much more than I would normally.
"You sure you want ME there?" he asks, I pick up the exaduration on the ME part.
"Yeah, I am," I tell him, 'God please say yes.'
"Ok, what time?" YES!! Lift off.
"Around Seven, I'll ever make dinner." I tell him, leaving before he can protest, I have paper work to do, so I can cut lose early and go shopping.
1730, log on to check my mail quickly. Maybe pop into the chat room, dinner is all ready cooking, so it can be left to simmer for a while.
*Signing in StarFlyer chat room #3457 Local, Colorado Springs*
MrsMackie: Hey there StarFlyer.
DrCoffeeBean: Leave him be Mackie, he isn't ready for you yet, the world in general ain't ready for you yet lol. Hey SF.
StarFlyer: Hi.
Mrs Mackie: don't tell me the boy is shy.
DrCoffeeBean: He's just quiet Mac, he's not a big talker. So How are you SF?
StarFlyer: I'm good, you?
DrCoffeeBean: Can't complain, Got to go soon thought, gotta get ready.
StarFlyer: Ready, for what?
DrCoffeeBean: Jack asked for my help with something tonight, its personal I can't tell you what, but I said I'd go.
StarFlyer: Personal Hey ;)
DrCoffeeBean: Not like that SF, he just has to sort out some stuff that his ex sent him that's all, wants a hand with it.
StarFlyer: Oh?
DrCoffeeBean: Sorry SF, can't say more. Its very personal to Jack, I couldn't betray his confidence like that.
StarFlyer: Fair enough.
That man is just too sweet, I don't deserve him, but God do I want him.
DrCoffeeBean: Anyway better go, need to get a shower.
StarFlyer: I have to go too actually, just popped on to check my mail; I'll catch you both later.
DrCoffeeBean: Bye SF, Bye Mac.
*DrCoffeeBean has signed out of this room*
*StarFlyer has signed out of this room*
I am so good at this, though I don't know how much longer I can keep it up, its driving me nuts not to be able to tell him.
I have to make my move soon. Or rather 'Jake' does.
"Hello Jack"
He is here, good, Dinner is almost ready.
"Come on in, take of a load, food will be done in a few minutes." I tell him, as he walks in cautiously.
"I made pasta, I hope that's ok, I didn't have much time to cook, I had to go buy the stuff first." I tell him. OK so YES I am trying to impress him with my niceness, and NO I don't really think it will help, but a man can but try.
"That's fine, you didn't have to go to any trouble," he tells me, oh yeah now he's getting suss.
"No trouble, I'm just glad to have you here, it means a lot to me, that your willing to help me with this, I... I don't think I could do it alone." Suck it up Jackie boy its time to stop Mr tough guy act, and show the man you have a heart.
"I don't mind, I'm... glad you asked me."
"You're my best friend, who else could I ask?" I tell him, honesty is the best policy and all that.
"I... wasn't sure I was anymore."
Oh Danny, you always were, always will be, nothing can change that. But instead I avoid saying it, and point him to the kitchen, serving out the dinner.
"I... this was his favourite..." the little brown teddy bear, with a several mismatching coloured patches was Charlie's favourite, he took it everywhere with him, I wanted to bury it with him, Sara, well she wouldn't allow it.
"I... don't want to get rid of it, but..." well I admit it, I don't want anyone to see me with it, I am a USAF Colonel, teddy bears don't look very good with the uniform.
"Give him here." Daniel asks, and I hand over the small bear. Following Daniel as he headed towards his bedroom, setting the little brown bear on the bedside table beside Charlie's picture.
"Looks good there." Daniel comments lightly, smiling at me.
"Thanks," I tell him, I don't think I could have done that myself.
Fuck! My head hurts. Daniel and I did the needed with Charlie's things last night, and then got pissed. A lot.
Daniel got a cab home at 3am this morning, maybe I should call him and make sure he made it home ok, or maybe I should leave it till after I go throw up.
"Morning Colonel" oh God Carter, little to loud and cheery there.
"Carter," I wince back, boy my head really does hurt.
"You look like Daniel did first thing this morning," she tells me. Well DUH, that would be cause we got shit faced together.
"He is in the commissary, Mrs Morgan was making him a hang over cure last I heard, play nice, and she might make you one," yeah right, she HATES me.
"Thanks" I say anyway, and of I go on my merry little way to find Daniel, and steal some of his hangover cure.
Night time, on earth, and I am going online, who knew the internet could be so addictive.
*Signing in StarFlyer chat room #3457 Local, Colorado Springs*
Killinmesoftly: I hate school sometimes, I'll catch you later Doc, gotta move my ass if I want to get to class.
DrCoffeeBean: Ok KMS, c u around. Hey StarFlyer!!!
*Killinmesoftly has signed out of this room*
StarFlyer: Hi Doc.
DrCoffeeBean: How r u?
StarFlyer: I'm good, u?
DrCoffeeBean: I'm good thanks.
StarFlyer: I was kinda hoping you were on.
DrCoffeeBean: Oh?
StarFlyer: Em... yeah, I know this is probably pointless, and I never would even think of doing this normally, but em... would u maybe, perhaps like to met, I mean really face to face?
DrCoffeeBean: Normally I'd say no, right of the bat.
StarFlyer: Is this normally?
DrCoffeeBean: It should be, but something about u, I trust you, so em... yeah, I think I'd like to.
StarFlyer: that's great :D
DrCoffeeBean: So em... where? When?
StarFlyer: Hadn't thought that far ahead, didn't think u'd agree.
DrCoffeeBean: Em... I know a bar, its nice, quite, O'Lerey's, we could met there, em tomorrow night, if u'r free, I don't have work so...
StarFlyer: I'm em... not so free, I promised a friend I'd watch her kid for her this weekend she has a family thing or somat, and her daughter doesn't want to go.
Actually Cassie ASKED for me to watch her for the weekend Janet is away, on well ok not family business, at least not HER family business.
And Daniel is coming over on Saturday cause Cassie invited him. Gotta love that kid, she knows how I feel, didn't even have to tell her, and she is helping me woo him, sneaky huh, but you gotta love it.
DrCoffeeBean: Oh ok.
StarFlyer: Next weekend? I can do then, if em... you can.
DrCoffeeBean: I can do that.
StarFlyer: Great :D. So say next Friday, at O'Lerey's em.... 0830, how will I know you?
What? Gotta play along.
DrCoffeeBean: Sure, em a book, with a yellow pencil sticking out the top (roses are so clichιd). So...
StarFlyer: Ok. So... how's work?
COLONEL JACK O'NEILL Journal Week Three.
Meeting Daniel tonight, this is the time I tell all, and either
Get a wonderful caring lover, to spend the rest of my life with.
Don't, but get to keep Daniel as my best friend.
I lose my best friend, have to quit SG-1, possibly the SGC, and never see him again.
I hope it's a.
Now as to what the hell I am suppose to wear, well now that's question ain't it, do I do casual, formal, or what, I mean is this a date, or what?
Maybe casually smart.
Oh fuck, its already 1730, gotta go get ready. Need to shower, and stuff first, and it takes half an hour to get there.
Col. Jack O'Neill
OK no tie, cause it's too lame, but I don't think I look too bad, shirt was a good choice, it's one Carter said made my chest more defined, always a good thing.
Hmmm, he looks nice too, that shirt I love, really brings out his eyes. Ok, so approach from behind, kinda mean, but that's me for ya.
"Daniel!" I think I look surprised to see him.
"Jack, what are you doing here?" oh Danny, you don't sound pleased to see me, did I spoil your fun?
"Getting a drink, isn't that what most people do in bars?" I ask.
"I yes, of course, sorry, I am expecting someone." He tells me, DUH.
"Oh cool, mind if I wait with you I'll leave as soon as she gets here promise," I tell him, sitting down, weather he likes it or not.
"I... It's a he actually," he admits, looking down. Ok time to tell him the truth I think I don't like that down cast, waiting to be yelled at look.
"I know," I whisper quietly.
"Wha...?"
"I'm Jake, or well Jake is me, before you start shouting, or getting angry, please, just listen, please!" I beg him.
"I'm listening," he tells me, , he not sounding happy, but he is listening, good, that's good.
"Can we go for a walk?" I don't fancy having this talk in a public bar.
"Fine," Ok he's really not happy, but he is willing to listen at least.
"I know your probably angry, I don't blame you, I SHOULD have told you it was me, but when we started talking online, you told me all that stuff, I... I just couldn't." I pause, I really should have though more about WHAT I was gonna say.
"I realized how much of an asshole I've been, and I wanted to make it better, but I didn't think I could, I needed time to work on things, to get our friendship back on track."
"I... when you told me you loved me, well told 'Jake' you loved me anyway, it was, I was shocked, but so happy, I felt like all my dreams were coming true, but I knew if I tried to move to fast, without fixing the damage I'd already done, I'd lose you, I can't bare the thought of that Daniel."
Ok here it comes, the big hook, I pray to whatever god there maybe, please let him believe me.
"I love you." There, said it, now, did I just gain a lover, or lose a best friend?
"Go home Jack," Oh FUCK, No, please no.
"Daniel please, wait" I call, but he is already off, No, this can't happen, I will not let this fucking happen.
"Daniel," I grab him, holding on tight, until he looks at me.
"I'm sorry I lied to you, I'm sorry I dragged you here under false pretences, I'm especially sorry I screwed up and hurt you so badly, but you have to believe me, I love you, I love you more than I have ever loved anyone except for Charlie." Please, Danny, please believe me, I plead silently, and I can feel the tears pricking my eyes at the same time I feel the rain begin to fall on my head.
"Why?" well that's a question indeed, why?
"I don't know, I wish I could explain it but I can't, I just do, every time I look at you, I feel it, every time I feel it, hell, even when you are on another God damn planet I feel it, more keenly than anything else ever in my life."
"I mean, why did you stop being my friend," oh that why.
"I was scared," I say, its true I was.
"And now?"
"I'm still scared, just of different things now. Like never being able to hold you and kiss you, never being able to wake up beside you in the morning and have you kick me out of bed to make you coffee, or being able to just sit beside you watching the game while you have your feet in my lap, and a your nose in a book."
"Oh," he's smiling, smiling is good right? I mean he isn't yelling, or walking away, or hitting me.
"Please come home with me?" I ask him quietly.
"I... ok." Yes, thank-you God.
"You want coffee?" I ask, peeling off my drenched coat, and hanging it along with Daniel's over the radiator.
"Not really."
"Em... change of clothes? I'm sure I have something that would fit," maybe I might, and if not, he can borrow my robe till I dry his stuff.
"No,"
"Ok, what then?" I ask.
"Just you." He tells me, his face lighting up with a small smile that could be as big as the sun, because it's sure as hell blinding me.
"You have me," I promise, sweeping him into my arms, and slowly leaning into kiss him.
Tastes sweet, wine I think, must have been from the glass he was drinking at the bar when I arrived.
"Bed," he orders, God that's sexy, he sounds so... masterful.
"Sir, yes, Sir" I call, laughing as I mock salute him and run up the few stairs to the bed room ahead of him. Not to fast though, I want him to catch me.
"Gotcha" he cries, triumphant as he catches me, as planed right outside the bedroom door.
"Hmmm, that you have." I agree, grinding my hips forward so he can fell exactly what he does to me, how hot he makes me, wanting him so bad I feel like I could come in my pants just from watching him breath.
"God Jaaaaack" he groans, yet another thing to at to the list of things Daniel does that turns me on.
"Want you Danny, want you in me," I tell him.
Never done it before, never wanted to before, but I want to now, I NEED to now.
"Jack..."
"Please Daniel, Please!"
Yes, he is so giving in, oh boy, that man has one talented tongue, I am sure he is trying to extract the tonsils I no longer have.
"Love you," he mumbles as I fall backwards onto the bed, hell I didn't even notice we were moving.
That was, WOW, doesn't begin to cover it, I have never felt anything so great, hurt a little at first, hell it hurt quite a lot at first, not that I will ever tell Daniel that, but once he was in me, it was so good. I have never felt so completed.
"I Love you," I whisper against his chest, I need to keep telling him that, over and over, until he knows it so deep in his bones, that nothing will make him forget again.
"I love you too," I will never tire of hearing that. I just wish we could tell people; I want to shout it from the rooftops. Oh well, retirement isn't THAT long away, and as long as I have him with me, as long as we are together, we can handle anything.
Fini
