Together Forever 2

The Woman In Me

by Melissa Adams & Amanda

URL: http://www.area52hkh.net/asm/madams/togever02.php
Summary: Sam is back but is love enough to make her stay?

Fraiser Residence

Janet Fraiser had been deep in thought the last two weeks ever since the incident with Y'Lair and the talk with Sam in her office ending with being kissed by said friend. She hadn't seen much of Sam and she wasn't sure why but was glad for it after all she still did not have any answers to give. She was sitting at home with her morning cup of coffee not really watching anything in particular just deep in thought. She came to the same conclusion she had every time she thought about it. She stood up and walked to the kitchen phone, calling base. "This is Doctor Fraiser can you connect me with General Hammond."

"Yes ma'am, one moment please," said the base switchboard operator.

Seconds later Hammond was on the phone, "This is Hammond. What can I do for you Doctor Fraiser?"

"I would like to request the day off Sir," Janet said politely.

"What is the reason for this request Doctor" he asked signing his name to a report and tossing it in his outbox while talking with her.

"Well Sir I don't feel that I'm at my best," Janet began. "There are no teams that are due back and none scheduled for pre jump exams. It's going to be a slow day in the infirmary so anything can be handled by Doctor Warner." She took a moment to breath. "I just think that since mentally I seem to be distracted that it's best to take the time off when it's there instead of being forced to take it during an emergency."

Thinking for a moment the man finally nodded, "All right Doctor, barring any medical emergencies you have the day off. Be sure you alert your staff and I'll let the duty officer know," he informed her. "I'll see you tomorrow then."

"Thank you Sir," Janet said before hanging up and calling the infirmary. "Abby this is Fraiser," she said then paused. "Could you inform Warner that he is in charge and that I will not be in today? I'll see everyone tomorrow."

"Sure thing Doctor but you did have a patient stop by earlier and ask for you" her Chief nurse stated. "She left and said it wasn't important when she found out you weren't in yet."

"Who was it Abby?" Janet asked.

"Hang on a moment ma'am and I'll ask, Marcia was doing triage assessment as I was in the storage room" and then silence greeted her as the call was put on hold. Seconds later the voice came back, "Major Carter ma'am."

"Thank you Abby," Janet said. "I'll see you tomorrow."

She hung up and immediately dialed Carters lab. Ring, ring, ring, ~Damn where is she why isn't she answering her phone. ~

SGC Complex

But Sam wasn't in her lab, she had gone in and picked up her laptop telling the Colonel she was sick and would work from home today so that was where she was on the way too. She had tried to see Janet but the woman wasn't in yet and so she was just going to stop by the pharmacy on her way home and pick up some stuff, it was probably just a cold anyway.

Fraiser Residence

When no answer was received Janet tried Sam's on base quarters and once again received no answer. The last place she was trying was Sam's home. She dialed the number by heart and reached the answering machine. "Hi Sam this is Janet, I heard you were looking for me. Sorry I missed you. Give me a call at home, but I will try your cell too." When Janet hung up she dialed Sam's cell and once again received voice message. "Sam its just Janet, I was trying to reach you. I'm home of you want to give me a call."

Local Pharmacy/Fraiser Residence

After stowing her laptop Sam drove through security and was just pulling up to the pharmacy when her cell beeped. Digging it out her pocket she coughed and listened to the voicemail hearing the voice. ~That explains why she wasn't in yet~ she thought and hung up before dialing the familiar number and waiting for an answer. Covering her mouth she coughed again and cleared her throat.

Janet was sitting on the back porch when her phone rang. She immediately ran to pick it up. "Hello, Fraiser residence," Janet said slightly winded. The woman's voice brought a smile to her face, "Hey Janet, I got your message. What's up?"

"I just called the infirmary and they said you were in looking for me, that you didn't look to good," Janet said. "Is everything alright?"

Sniffing the woman settled back in her seat and put a hand on the wheel, "Yeah, just a cold I think. I was going to check in with you, but since you weren't there I didn't want to bother Warner" she admitted though the truth was that none of SG-1 tolerated any doctor but Janet; they'd kind of had a vote on it after the first time she had treated all four of them.

"Are you heading home or still at work?" Janet asked. No matter how many times she told SG-1 that any doctor could see them they seemed to refuse unless it was her.

Sam turned to her head and covered her mouth pulling the phone away and coughed before clearing her throat and bringing it back, "I went in to get my laptop and tell the Colonel I was working from home today. I'm actually at the pharmacy on Magnolia now, why?"

"Make sure you get something for the cough and a lozenge of some sort. I'll stop by your place in about an hour or so to check on you," Janet said, a motherly tone in her voice.

"You don't have to do that," Sam said. "Cassie will be home soon anyway won't she? If you want to call something in I can wait" she informed the woman trying to act like a friend and pushing her 'lovers' thoughts aside. "It's just a cold and...."

"Sam stop fighting me," Janet said. "First of al,l I can't call anything in without looking at you first. Secondly, Cassie has a group study and won't be home till late. I'll be by in a while OK?" Janet asked wondering why Sam was pushing her away.

Sniffing the sneezed and pulled the phone down to wipe it on her shirt, "Sorry about that, I sneezed on the phone. Anyway your place is closer from the pharmacy, do you want me to stop by before heading home Janet?"

"If you stop by I might make you stay," Janet said. "Being the doctor and all I will probably want to take care of you."

"And if you come over to the house you'll just want to stay and take care of me" Sam stated knowing her best friend well, wishing she knew her better when a cough interrupted her thoughts. "Sorry, anyway it's up to you Janet; either one is ok. If it's just a cold I can go home and take care of myself, keep you and Cassie from getting sick."

"Sam, me and Cassie getting sick is not the factor," Janet said. "What do you want? And what would make you more comfortable?" Janet asked

A smile graced the woman's lips; Janet always knew just what to ask or to say in order to make her feel better about anything. While her medical knowledge was a truly appealing feature it was her ability to relax anyone in any situation that had really drawn Sam to her, "I'll stop by your place; it's closer. Now what did you want me to get from the pharmacy and do you..." she sneezed. "Excuse me. Do you need anything else while I'm out?"

"I don't need anything thank you," Janet said with a slight laugh. "Just pick up cough syrup, throat lozenges and an over the counter antibiotic that best matches you symptoms. If I need anything else I will find out once your here."

Local Pharmacy

"Sure thing, see you in thirty minutes or so Janet. Thanks. Bye" she answered and hung up the phone pausing a moment to think perhaps she should call her back and get out of it but knowing Janet that wouldn't work so she got out and went into the pharmacy while dialing her cell and getting Colonel O'Neil, "Hello Colonel how are you..." she turned to cough and sneeze before moaning into the phone. "Doing Sir?"

"Carter, shouldn't you be at home sleeping or something?" O'Neil asked. "I know I would."

"No, you'd be barbecuing Sir" she offered heading up an aisle. "I was calling..." she turned to cough again and cleared her throat. "To tell you that if you wanted me I'd be at Janet's, she got a hold of me and as soon as I'm done at the pharmacy I'm heading over there Sir, so try to behave until I get back to the base and stay out of my lab Colonel."

"Good the Doc will fix you up good as new," O'Neil said. "And I never go in your lab when you're not there. Hurry up and get better Carter I'm going nuts here. O'Neil out."

Hanging up the phone Sam went back and grabbed one of those shopping bags and started loading up, if it was just a cold she didn't want to have to come back out for anything and then she went into the grocery store part and got some boxes of blue jello mix, chocolate pudding mix, and one of those lemon pies she liked before paying and heading for Janet's; hopefully this wouldn't take long.

Fraiser Residence

Janet cleaned around the house waiting till Sam arrived. She had finished the living room and was now in the kitchen.

A couple more sneezes and Sam was at Janet's. Getting out she put her purse, laptop case and the bag from the pharmacy in one hand while holding her keys and cell in the other before going up to the door and rang the bell turning to sneeze again. ~Boy after a while this would start to piss me off~ Carter thought wiping her nose on her uniform sleeve.

Janet stopped washing the dishes and headed for the door upon hearing the doorbell. She opened it finding a sneezing Sam Carter before her. "Well hello to you too," Janet said playfully stepping aside so Sam could enter.

Coming in Sam smiled, not a dreamy smile but a friendly smile as she deposited everything but the cell, keys and pharmacy bag by the door. She handed the latter to Janet, "Don't say...*cough, sneeze* I never brought you anything."

"Gee thanks," Janet said laughing. "But I think this has to be one of those gifts you get someone so you can use it type of thing." Janet gestured to the coach. "Have a seat and make yourself comfortable. I just need to get my medical bag." She deposited the paper bag of medicine on the coffee table and headed up the stairs to her room after her bag.

By the time Janet got back Sam was laying on the sofa, her eyes were closed and she still had her coat on.

"Are you cold Sam?" Janet asked moving to sit on the floor next to the couch and placed her hand on Sam's forehead to see if she was on the warm side.

"No, freezing actually" she stated opening her eyes and started to sit up with a sneeze. "I...called the Colonel, told him I was over here if he needed me."

"That's fine and don't sit up," Janet said placing her hands on Sam's shoulder to push her back down. "Do you want to keep your jacket on or take it off?" She asked as she pulled the blanket down that was draped over the coach.

"If you want the truth" she said sniffing lightly, "I'd like someone to set my underwear on fire since it's so cold. Let me guess, I'm running a ...*sneeze* fever right?"

"You feel a little warm. I won't know how high exactly until I use a thermometer," Janet said with a smile. "And be careful what you wish for. You might get it someday. And if that's the case don't come crying to me with burns."

"And here I thought...*cough* You were going to baby me" she joked with a wink, wishing that Janet knew how she felt; she'd love to lay in her arms right now, but of course that wasn't happening.

"I'm taking care of you am I not?" Janet questioned with a raised eyebrow. She pulled out a wrapped tongue depressor and unwrapped it. "Open, I want to see your throat."

With a smile the woman pressed her lips together and shook her head like Cassie.

"Sam, I can't make you better if you don't," she said then added. "Plus I won't make your jello."

"But that's..." and she was the victim of her friend's lightening quick reflexes, she hated tongue depressors.

"Thank you," Janet said with a smirk. "Now say ahh." She pulled out a pen light so she could see better

If she could have Sam would have stuck her tongue out but as it was all she could do was give in and roll her eyes, "AHH."

"It looks like your throats a little raw," Janet said. "Has it been hurting much?" She moved on dropping the tongue depressor. And just for fun moved to check her pupil dilation.

Closing her eyes the doctor got a cough as a response at first and then Sam sighed, "From all the coughing and...." she turned her head to sneezed. "Sneezing yeah."

"I'm glad you didn't sneeze on me," Janet said and smiled. "I hate being covered in mucus." She pulled the thermometer out and placed it in Sam's mouth. "Well it look like you have a mild case of the flu but that depends on if you have a fever."

"Trust me, got fever to burn" she mumbled around the thermometer and closed her eyes feeling Janet holding her wrist for a pulse. "Not flu" she said taking the thermometer out, "Cold."

Janet looked at the thermometer. "No Sam, you don't have a cold. You most definitely have a mild case of the flu." She took the blanket and now completely covered Sam with it. "Do you want anything?"

"To..." she sneezed again and wiped her nose on her coat sleeve, that would have to be washed later. "I...I have to go back to the base, Siler called on the way here" she insisted.

"Sam. You are in no condition to be working," Janet informed. "Besides I don't want to be treating half the base for the flu." She gave Sam the infamous doctor stair of hers.

Pushing the blanket away she starts to sit up, "Can....interact with laptop over secured...*cough* connection and talk on phone."

"Fine, but keep the blanket wrapped around you," Janet said. "I don't want you to be working too long though. You need rest to fight this." Janet ran her hand through blond tresses before standing up and moving out of Sam's way. "If you need anything let me know."

"Water and jello please" she asks standing up tiredly to go get her laptop and moves toward Janet's den where the secure connection is set up.

"I'll bring you some water and warm broth," Janet said smiling. 'The jello will take a while longer." She left going into the kitchen.

Sam had been typing at her laptop a while, getting more tired and coughing as she held the phone in her ear, "No Siler...No you aren't going to...Listen to me, I'm telling you how to fix it...I...*sneezes* I can't come in...because I have the flu and Fraiser won't let me...If you'll just listen to...I know it's not supposed to..."

Janet came walking in with a glass of water and a mug of broth for Sam. "You can get some jello in about twenty minutes or so. I want you to drink all the broth though. It will help with the flem," Janet said setting the mug and glass down. "I'll be in the living room if you need me. And left.

For five more minutes Carter argued and finally just hung up and emailed the directions and then shut down her laptop draining the broth, God it tasted bland but that was likely because she couldn't taste anything. Sighing the woman shook her head and went out with her glass of water seeing Janet seated on the sofa reading and walked over, "Are you going to call me in any medicine" she asked putting the glass down and turned to sneeze, this time using a tissue from her pocket.

"I already did and Cassie said she would stop by the pharmacy on the way home," Janet said not looking up from her book. "Have a seat or would you rather go upstairs and lie down?"

As a compromise Sam pulled the blanket tighter around and laid down, resting her head on Janet's legs and hugged them yawning, "Night, night."

"I will let you know when it gets time for diner," Janet said softly dropping a hand to sift through Sam's hair.

Squeezing the legs tightly she scooted up a little more to rest her head just above Janet's crotch, if she couldn't really do anything about it at least the thought of it would help as she was sick. "K" she mumbled and shifted a little but then closed her eyes and settled down for a nap.

Janet was reclined on the sofa with Sam's head resting on her pelvis when Cassie came home. Janet placed a finger over her mouth telling Cassie to be quiet. "Sam's asleep," then went back to running her fingers through the blond hair.

Sam felt someone shaking her shoulder and rolled over, unknowingly burring her face right into Janet's crotch and seemed perfectly content there as she brought her hands up and laid them on each side of the woman's butt on the sofa.

Janet smiled at how Sam now laid. "Sam," Janet said softly as she continued to shake the shoulder.

In response the woman buried her face more into Janet, truthfully it matched the dreams running through her mind but the action made Janet shift a little.

As much as Janet really didn't mind having Sam's face there her daughter was still wondering around the house and this was something she really didn't want to have to explain. Janet picked Sam's head up a little removing it from her crotch. "Sam, honey you need to wake up," Janet said a little more loudly than before.

"Mmm...." was the mumbled reply and then Sam turned her head and sneezed which woke her up, "Oh man" she complained, her voice was a little raspy as she sat up. "Sorry Janet..."

"Don't be," Jane said with a smile. "You didn't want to wake up there. What were you dreaming of to put such a smile on your face?"

~Boy do I want to tell you Janet~ the woman thought blushing, maybe that was the fever, "Uh I don't remember. So did Cassie..."

"Hi Aunt Sam" came the girl's voice.

Turning slightly Carter nodded, "Hey kiddo, you better not get to close as I don't want you getting this."

"OK Aunt Sam," Cassie said and blew her a kiss instead. "Are you going to be staying with us for a while?" She asked then added. "Dinner is ready."

Janet just listened to Sam and Cassie talk running her hands from Sam's temple into her hair and repeating the motion.

"Up to your mom kid..." she turned to cough and moan, bringing a hand to her chest and weakly smiled. "Up to your mom kiddo."

"Well I would rather you stay here than at your house," Janet said with a warm smile. "Now I'm starving so lets eat."

Cassie nods and goes back into the kitchen.

Yawning Sam looks weakly at Janet and smiles, "I'm...really not hungry Janet. I'm just...going to lay out here for a few more minutes, but I'll be in a little later to take my medicine" she promises, knowing full well she won't be because she'll fall asleep.

"Can you at least have a couple of spoonfuls of soup," Janet requested not pushing her friend.

"Honestly" she admitted tiredly, "I don't..." more coughing. "I don't think I'd have the energy to lift the spoon Janet."

"OK," Janet said and scooted out from under Sam and rested her head on the arm of the couch. "I'll come back and wake you to take your meds." She leaned down and kissed Sam on the forehead before straightening and heading into the kitchen. She kissed Cassie on the cheek. "We'll put Sam's soup in the microwave and when she is hungry it will be easy to heat up. Where are her meds?" She asked.

"On the counter in the kitchen Mom" the girl said spreading a napkin in her lap. "I can always go out and get more if she wants fresh too. Is she going to be all right?" she asked seriously worried about her Aunt.

Janet moved to sit next to Cassie but kissed her head before sitting. "She will be fine. She just has the flu, so as long as I keep her here she will get over it soon."

"If you're sure" the girl said and smiled. "Hey maybe I'll get it and then I can stay home from school and...." she saw her mother's look as she settled down to eat. "What?"

"No," Janet said firmly. "Taking care of one kid is enough for me, thank you very much."

"Yeah, but you and I can get it right" she said eating a bite of soup and then picked up her juice. Her mom always liked it when she had juice instead of pop.

"Yeah, but I am trying to keep you as far away from it as possible," Janet said then took a spoonful of soup. "See unlike me and Sam your immune system isn't use to Earth diseases yet."

"Did you want me to go stay with Uncle Jack or Uncle Daniel" Cassandra asked referring to the phone call she had told her mom about earlier as they heard Sam coughing and sneezing in the other room.

"That may be a wise idea," Janet said. "After dinner maybe you could call one of them and see if it's ok." She ate her soup and finished drinking her tea. She went into the kitchen placing her bowl in the sink and refilled her mug. She filled a glass with water and grabbed Sam's meds heading into the living room. Placing the glass and meds along side her mug on the coffee table. Shaking Sam's shoulder. "Sam. Wake up," Janet said softly kneeling beside the couch. She noticed how close her face was to Sam's. ~God how I would like to kiss you right now, that would surely wake you up~.

Groggy blue eyes greeted her and a smile, "Hey beautiful" she commented not realizing she had said it allowed and yawned starting to sit up, wincing, as her body was sore.

Janet helped Sam sit and her smile grew even more at the compliment, ~If Sam only meant it~. "Hey sleepy head. Its time for your meds," Janet said reaching for the glass and handing it to Sam along with her pills.

Smiling the woman tipped her head back and took the pills and a half a glass of water when she handed it back racked with more coughs as she saw Cassie come in and waved but pulled Janet down beside her.

Giggling the teen waved, "Uncle Jack said I could stay with him since he's who I called first. He's coming to pick me up mom so I'm going to go pack."

"OK honey," Janet said. "Let me know if you need help and don't forget your school books."

"I'd rather have the flu" the girl stated and ran upstairs.

"She's leaving" Sam asked leaning her head over and resting it on Janet's chest, listening to her heartbeat and smiled. She'd love nothing more than to feel better and be able to show the woman she loved the passion in her heart but she couldn't even tell her she loved her.

Janet let Sam lean on her and in return she rubbed the long lean back. "Yeah, I think it will be better. Her immune system still isn't synchronized to handle Earth viruses and if she gets sick it would be worse than you are," Janet said continuing to rub the back.

"Mmm....k" she commented and just relaxed against the woman. "I hate being sick" she mumbled.

"Nobody likes it," Janet said and began rubbing her hand moving from Sam's upper shoulders to her lower back. God how she wished she could hold her as a lover and not just a friend.

Yawning Sam coughed again and moaned, "Still cold, colder really" she commented shivering lightly even under the blanket.

Just as Sam said she was cold a horn honked and soon Cassie came running down the stairs. "I'll be right back Sam," Janet said and stood moving to the door following Cassie out.

Jack sat in his truck waiting for the bubbly teen.

"Thank you Sir," Janet said. "I know you are not one for work in any form, but can you make sure she does her homework before playing the video games." Janet kissed Cassie on the cheek then opened the door and waited for her to get in before closing it. "Don't be too much trouble for the Colonel Cassie. He is getting old."

"Just for that Doc I better not see ONE needle at my next check up" the man commented playfully.

Kissing her mom the girl glanced at her uncle Jack, "Don't worry mom, I'll make him behave."

"Don't get cute Kiddo. Doc, let me know how Carter is tomorrow would ya?"

"Yes Sir," Janet said wrapping her arms around her to fight of the slight chill. "Have fun Cassie." Janet headed back into the house and found Sam in the same spot. "How about we get you into bed where it's warmer unless you want to eat something?"

"Only if it's hot" she answered tiredly and coughed. "God this stinks" she said leaning over and burying her head into a sofa cushion.

"Well soup usually is hot," Janet said playfully. "You want me to heat it up and bring it over here?"

"Yes please" came Sam's mumbled reply as she sneezed. "And another blanket please?"

"Sure," Janet said rubbing Sam's back. "I'll be right back." Janet went into the kitchen heating up the soup then walked to the linen closet pulling another blanket out for Sam. She returned with blanket in hand a moment later. "Here, the soup should almost be ready," she said as she covered Sam. She left and returned with a bowl of hot soup with spoon and a mug of tea for herself. She sat the bowl and mug down. "Lets get you sitting up."

"Do I have to" was the reply as Sam sat up but clearly didn't like it based on the look on her face but the soup smelled wonderful and she pulled both blankets now tighter around her.

Janet sat next to Sam helping her remain upright as she began to feed her. She put a small amount of soup on the spoon and slightly blew it to cool down a bit before offering it to Sam.

"Let me know when you get full or sick," Janet, stated. "Which ever comes first"?

"Hopefully the first one" she said and took the bite swallowing it but of course no taste and it hurt a little going down. Turning her blond head another cough racked her body and she laid her head back, "I wish I could taste it. But it's hot anyway."

"Cold affect the taste buds," Janet said offering another spoonful. "Why I have no idea but it does."

"To make me miserable" was Sam's answer as she lifted her head and took another bite, wincing slightly as she swallowed and cleared her throat. "How long will I be sick?"

"Well if your body gets all the rest it needs maybe three or four days," Janet said. "But that means staying in bed almost all the time." Janet felt sympathy for her friend. This is the one person she never wanted to see hurt or in pain. She offered another spoonful.

Smiling the Major sat forward and coughed, before taking another spoonful and the same face but didn't lean her head back that time, "Could we just shoot" she sneezed, "Shoot me instead?"

"Now where's the fun in that?" Janet asked smiling. "Then I would be out a friend." She offered Sam another spoonful.

~Just a friend~ the woman thought a little disappointed but then nodded and accepted the soup shaking her head, "No...more Janet. Stomach is a little...upset."

"OK," Janet said placing the bowl on the coffee table. "You ate half of it. I'm surprised, I didn't think your stomach would handle that much." She paused then began speaking again. "Why don't we get you in bed? Someplace warm and comfortable."

"I can..." the words broke off as a coughing fit happened, a hard one until Sam was leaning back catching her breath. "I...can sleep on the sofa."

"The couch isn't really comfortable and will make your body more stiff and sore than it already is," Janet said matter of factly then smiled adding. "Plus at least in the guest room you are closer to me if you need anything."

"Could lay with you" the woman got out and then sat up blushing and lowered her head, "Oh geeze...Janet I'm sorry...I...I shouldn't have said that. Maybe I should just go home and...." she started to reach from under the blankets for her boots.

Janet stopped Sam's movements. "Yes," Janet whispered softly. ~God is this the right thing to do, what if she doesn't think of me the same way~

Locking her eyes on the woman's hand holding hers Sam Carter was almost too afraid to look over but she did after coughing, "Yes? Yes what Janet" she asked. ~Oh God, does she...is there a chance that? ~

Janet laughed and brought her free hand to brush the hair at Sam's temple back. "Yes you can stay with me if that's what you want," Janet said softly lost in blue eyes.

Janet's touch electrified her and even with the fever she knew she was getting hotter as she straightened up, "Are...* she turned to sneeze and wiped her nose. "Are you sure Janet? I don't...want to damage our friendship? I can stay in the guest bedroom," she offered tiredly. ~There, now she has a way out if she wants it. ~

"I don't mind Sam," Janet said maintaining eye contact and letting the hand in Sam's hair graze her ear as she dropped it down. "If you want to stay with me your more than welcome too."

"O...Ok" she said softly and inside was all smiles. ~YES~ Sam screamed in her mind. "I'm...I'm really tired, can you help me Janet" she asked coughing again.

Janet stood and placed her hands under Sam's arms helping her stand than wrapped one arm around a slender waist while the other held onto Sam's arm that was draped across her shoulders. Slowly they walked up the stairs and down the hall. When they entered Janet's room she paused long enough to turn on the lights before continuing to the bed.

Sinking down into the bed Sam laid back and was too tired to even get undressed. She was sore, cold, cold again, sore, tired and oh yeah did she mention cold? "I hate the..." her body arched up as she sneezed. "Flu" she commented falling back.

"Sam you hate anything that keeps you from working," Janet said. "Did you want to change or sleep in your uniform?" Janet asked moving towards the closet.

"Don't matter" she answered tiredly and rolled over.

Janet pulled out a large t-shirt for Sam and a pair of shorts. Then changed into her t-shirt and shorts before heading over to Sam and helping her. Janet had to gulp hard when she pulled Sam's shirt over her head and removed her bra.

Which wasn't the best thing to do as Carter was a bit delirious and the images in her mind made her snake her hand out and grab Janet pulling her on top of her and kissing her again, "Mmm" she said rubbing her back tightly.

At first Janet responded to the kiss, increasing the pressure she applied to Sam's lips. But after realizing what was going on she pulled away. "Sam we need to stop," she said softly. ~God how I really don't want to stop, I can't remember the last time someone kissed me like that.~

"Why" was the mumbled reply and if not for the sickness Sam would never have admitted it, "I...love you Janet" she whispered not opening her eyes.

"I love you too Sam," Janet said with all her heart cupping the other woman's cheek. "But right now you're not thinking clearly and I don't want you to do anything you might regret later." Janet let her eyes speak her sincerity and show all the emotions she was feeling.

The words immediately bore into Sam's soul and she was more alert and forced herself to sit up, tiredly and sore but she was up and locked eyes with Janet. "I...wasn't sick...when I kissed you..." she turned to cough and felt her friend rubbing her back. "I...love you Janet...always have" she admitted and turned back to see if Janet turned away in disgust.

Janet closed her eyes trying to fight the tears that were threatening to fall. She had to be dreaming, that's it she was dreaming. "Sam let's wait until you're over the flu to figure out if this is really how you feel," Janet said trying to keep the sadness out of her voice.

Reaching out Sam touched her cheek, tenderly and like a lover, "It's how I feel Janet...it's how I've felt for years" she promised and fought the coughs. "Please believe...that. I love you...I..." she coughed again, "I need you."

Janet let her head drop trying to hide the tears that were falling. She remained like that trying to gain control over her emotions. She never believed that Sam could actually feel the same way for her as she did for Sam.

After another coughing fit the Major put her hands on Janet's shoulders, "It's...ok Janet, it's really ok."

"Sam I don't want you to say things and not realize your saying them," Janet managed between sniffles. "This isn't something that can easily be taken back."

"I'm..." she turned to sneeze and sniffed to cover the post nasal drip and smiled a goofy grin, "I'm not taking them back, you'll see. We don't have to do...* a coughing fit interrupted her and she shook her head, as best she could anyway. "We don't have to do anything tonight, just...hold me as I sleep all right?"

Janet nodded shutting of the light and climbing into bed lying down so Sam could pillow her head on a shoulder. Janet used her free hand to hold Sam's, which was across her waist while the other playing with blond locks.

Despite being sick Sam Carter found just being near Janet, with the knowledge that she felt; at least partially, how she did was enough to lull her to sleep in the woman's arms and despite several coughing fits she didn't move pushing up as close to her as she could as she slept.

Janet was awake most of the night watching Sam sleep and the moonlight caste over soft features. She was deep in thought going over the possibilities that this was actually happening, but she could ignore the feeling that Sam was talking because of the flu, that she really didn't feel that way.

At some point Carter noticed Fraiser drift off and carefully removed herself from her grasp making sure she was comfortable and covered up, she wanted to do something and seeing as how it was just after breakfast time for her normally it would work before this flu really kicked her in the butt and she couldn't move or wanted too.

It took Sam almost two hours to get everything in place downstairs in the dining room and going back upstairs she simply stared at Janet's sleeping features, each rise and fall of her chest bringing a wider grin and then she sank down on the side of the bed coughing but cupped her cheek rubbing it gently with her thumb, "Janet...baby...wake up" she said softly.

Janet forgot that Sam had slept in her bed, but remembered she was sick so thinking something was wrong she sat up with a start and banged her head on the headboard. "What's wrong?" She asked rubbing the back of head in a near panic.

With a bit of a smile she snaked her hand up to rub the woman's head, "Nothing is wrong Janet...I'm ok. I made a surprise for you downstairs and wanted to get you up to show you; that's all" she admitted a little dejectedly that the woman had gotten hurt. "I'm sorry I hurt you Janet, I didn't mean to."

"It's ok Sam," Janet said with a smile. "Nothing to worry about or feel sorry for. You would think with all the times I have done that, eventually I would learn." She shrugged her shoulders. "Guess not." She stopped and looked at Sam. "You should be in bed not playing around in the house."

Touched by her friend's concern she brought her hand down and took Fraiser's carefully, "I will...right after I show you this and we eat I'll come right back and you can..." she turned to cough again and hit her chest. "You can do whatever you want to me and I won't say a word. Come on" Sam said rising, "Get up."

Janet got out of bed and followed Sam as she pulled her along.

Coming to the bottom of the stairs she let her loose and went around behind her putting her hands over her eyes, "Ok, keep em closed and I'll direct us. Ready?"

"Ok, but what is this about?" Janet asked taking small steps.

Maneuvering Janet into the dining room and knowing the smells of the fresh blueberry pancakes would greet her nose Sam slid her hands from Janet's eyes. The room was bathed in candlelight from several candles as well as a large red ribbon on the chair at the head of the table where a stack of three pancakes, all the necessary condiments, coffee, juice were all waiting but spelled out on top of the pancakes in cut up small pieces of strawberries were the words: I love you Janet, forever with painstaking care. "That's what it's about Janet."

"Sam you did all this?" Janet was amazed. "Thank you." She hooked her hand around Sam's neck drawing her head down and gave her the softest of kisses on the lips. "I don't know what to say."

Bringing her hands up the slightly taller woman rubbed her back as she met Janet's eyes and returned the kiss before speaking, "Say you believe me..." she turned to cough. "What I said last night, I meant it Janet...I love you; have for a really long time. Say you believe that" she all but pleaded.

Janet closed her eyes and rested her head against Sam's chest. "I believe you," she managed to say through the tears.

For minutes Carter just rested her head on Janet's gently, holding her, taking comfort from her and strength before she carefully picked her up moving toward the table, "Come on, you gotta eat Janet. I didn't cook all this just so I could win points..." and then stopped with a smile and a cough, "Ok, I did but you still need to eat it honey."

"I don't know," Janet said. "Your cooking skills or lack of them are known throughout the SGC."

"That would be because I never had anyone worthwhile to cook for before" she countered depositing her in a chair and then reached over to lay a napkin in her lap. "Ok, you eat and I'm going to go get the rest, you didn't think I just made pancakes did you?"

"Sam with all this food you're going to make me fat," Janet stated and took a bit of strawberry from the word love. "Before you go," Janet said and held out a piece from the same word for Sam.

Coming back with a twinkle in her eye the woman knelt down and took the bite before pressing her lips to Janet's, both of them savoring the taste and then straightened up, "Not bad."

Janet continued to eat only to stop to take a drink of coffee. By the time Sam return she was one-third the way through the pancakes. "These strawberries are really good. Where did you get them?" Janet asked as she ate another piece.

"Had them delivered and flavored with something special" she commented with a bit of an evil look as she coughed and sat another cup of juice in front of her friend as well as a plate with sausage, eggs and toast before she went back to get her own; only slightly smaller. "Drink your juice Janet," she said covering her mouth to cough.

Janet did as was told. "What is the special flavor?" She questioned enjoying her food.

"A special blend" she promised with a wink, wanting Janet to guess what it was. After lying with the woman all night she had been so sopping wet and had used all the 'love juice' she had produced as flavoring.

Janet had finally had her fill of eggs, sausage, toast and pancakes. She leaned over and kissed Sam very slow and sensual. "Thank you," Janet said their lips just barely apart. "This was all delicious," another quick kiss before continuing. "But you should get back to bed Sam. If you want to get over this flu."

With a spark in her eye and leaning forward to kiss her lover again the woman reached back and put a hand on her butt, "Sure, you can tuck me in and then give me a full physical Janet. After all...I'm sick" she answered sensually.

When the kiss broke Janet laughed, "This is probably the only time you are willing to get a physical," she said standing and moving towards the kitchen. "Head upstairs and get into bed while I get your meds."

Slowly Sam made her way upstairs and since they were alone she pulled off her clothes and climbed under the covers, lying down but had a spot all ready for Janet beside her. Even though it was ten o'clock Janet could just take the day off or something.

Janet made a quick stop before grabbing the meds. She picked up the kitchen phone and dialed the base's familiar number. "This is Doctor Fraiser connect me to General Hammond please," she requested and waited for the line to be picked up.

"Hammond" came the older man's voice and glanced at his clock. "I thought you were due on base at nine Doctor?"

"Yes Sir I was," Janet began. "The reason I am calling and the reason for not already being on base is that I have a very sick Major Carter here. She seems to have a bad case of the flu. Colonel O'Neil can confirm this as he is watching Cassie since I don't want her to catch it." She paused taking a sip of water. "I would like to stay and treat her. It may be for the rest of the week and if there is an emergency I can be called in."

"The Colonel did inform me about Major Carter's illness Doctor" the man informed her calmly and leaned back. "If she is that ill should she not be in the hospital or the Infirmary?"

"She isn't ill enough to warrant being kept in the hospital or infirmary. My concern lies with the fact that no matter what you tell her she will not stay in bed and rest or take her meds. She will continue to try and work, unless babysat," Janet admitted with a smile though Hammond could not see it. "I would rather treat her at my home than have to treat half the base for this flu."

Several seconds of silence passed and finally the man nodded, "All right Doctor, but I want daily reports sent to me about the Major's progress and keep in contact with the Infirmary regularly incase your opinion is needed."

"Yes sir I will email you daily reports and keep in contact," Janet said. "Thank you sir."

"Just get her well Doctor. Good bye" and he hung up the phone.

Janet hung up the phone and grabbed Sam's medication as well as a glass of water then headed up to her bedroom. She sat on the edge of the bed handing first the glass then the pills to Sam. She also sat a bag of throat lozenges on the nightstand for later. "I called and spoke with General Hammond and informed him that you are sick and that neither one of us will be in this week."

Swallowing the pills with a wince the woman nodded lightly and handed her the glass, "You..." she turned to cough again, "Took the week off for me?"

"Someone had to make sure you actually rested and took your medication," Janet joked and flashed Sam one of her brightest smiles. "If your throat gets really sore suck on one of the drops in the bag. I'm going to be downstairs if you need me," Janet said leaning over to give Sam a quick kiss before standing up next to the bed.

"What about my physical" she whined and lifted the blanket to reveal her naked body. "I even..." she coughed and then fell back smiling, "Got ready for it already."

Janet laughed and shook her head. "You're in rare form today," she commented as she allowed her hand to run from Sam's color bones down between her breasts to the flat of her stomach where fingers spread out. "I really don't think you need a physical," Janet rasped out her voice catching with the emotions building inside her.

"That's got to be a first" she said shivering at the touch and brought her hand up to cover Janet's on her belly and then Sam patted the bed beside her and motioned her to get in.

"Sam, I don't know if this is such a good idea," Janet said her eyes filling with the passion she felt.

Seriously now the woman pushed herself to sit up and cleared her throat tiredly, she had to know, "Why Janet? I love you, I think you love me so why shouldn't we show one another that love?" she said brushing Janet's hand that was on her belly.

Janet closed her eye,s trying to center herself to think clearly. "Sam you are still sick," Janet mumbled out enjoying the touch of Sam's soft skin and the hand on hers.

"So" she proclaimed and stared at her coughing. "You...you think that's why...I'm saying I love you don't you?"

"I don't know Sam," Janet admitted. "People say things they don't mean while they are sick. They have trouble thinking clearly."

"Go...downstairs, get my bag. Will...prove it" Carter proclaimed and coughed but pressed Janet's hand a little more firmly into her belly and caressed it meeting her eyes. "I do love you Janet."

"I'm not saying you don't Sam," Janet argued. "I just don't think you love me as much as you think right now. I think you just love me as a friend and nothing more." Janet continued to stare into blue eyes as she tried to pull her hand back.

"Go...downstairs. Get my bag please," she asked tiredly and yawned.

"Lay down and rest," Janet said finally pulling her hand back. "I'll bring your bag up." She stood leaving heading back down stairs not looking back at Sam.

Once Janet had brought the bag back Sam dug in it and came up with a notebook that she passed to her while she coughed, "Read it..." she insisted and then rolled over to go to sleep.

Janet sat on the bed, her back against the headboard and her legs pulled up so the notebook rested on them. Janet opened the book and looked at the first page, the writing done in Sam's neat script.

For over two hours the book talked about the feelings Sam had for Janet, the love she felt sure she'd never be able to share. It outlined fantasies Sam had about them and how she wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of her life with her.

Feeling the warmth against her Sam crawled over, still half asleep and snuggled up to Janet's thigh and butt, burying her face sideways as she coughed right against the woman's thigh and drifted back off to sleep.

Janet was overwhelmed, she didn't know what to think and as Sam snuggled up against her, she dropped a hand and began to caress a bare back not aware of her actions and the effect they might have. She continued to read intent on finishing the notebook.

It was hours later when Sam opened tired blue eyes and felt a hand on her back, moving and she rolled over a little to find Janet sitting and just closing the notebook, "Hey" she whispered, her voice a little soft because of being sleepy.

Janet didn't stop the soft caress and kept her other hand on the cover of the notebook. "Hey," she responded back not looking at Sam but staring off into the space in front of her.

Slowly Sam sat up and next to Janet, resting her naked body against hers and her head on the woman's shoulder, "Finished huh" she asked tiredly and coughed. "What did you think?" she asked.

"I...I..." Janet tried to speak but stopped to gather her thoughts. "I never thought you felt this way." She sat there amazed. "If this is how you feel why have you avoided me for the last two weeks?"

"Fear" Sam answered without hesitation and slid an arm over Janet's stomach. "I...I was too afraid to think you may feel the same way...but now you see" she began among coughs. "I felt this way...before I was...sick."

Janet still looked at the wall on the other side of the room in front of her. "I think I fell in love with you the first moment we talked," she whispered her hand still tracing lazy circles on a naked back.

"I know I did" she promised and squeezed her towards her. "I love you Janet...always have."

"I love you too Sam," Janet admitted her voice nothing more than a soft whisper almost as if the wind carried this simple declaration of love.

Emotion washed over Sam and she cried, the declaration was more than she could have hoped for when the phone rang and both women looked at it tiredly, "I'm going to the bathroom, you get the phone" Carter said sneezing.

Janet watched as Sam unwrapped herself from the blankets and headed to her bathroom. She watched the lean naked form until she passed out of view. The ring of the phone drew Janet back to reality. "Fraiser residence."

"Hey Doc, how's Carter" came the jubilant voice of Jack O'Neil. "Oh and Cass got off for school ok, said she'd call you after that and said she loves you and Carter."

"Thank you sir," Janet said with a smile. "Sam is doing a little better. Still has a nasty cough though. I'm a little worried that it might settle in her chest."

"So how do you make sure it doesn't do that?" he asked as the concerned CO and friend. "I mean you gotta jab her in the ass or what Doc?"

"No, the ass jabbing is left only to be done for you," Janet commented. "The only thing I can do is keep an eye on it and make sure the antibiotics are taken."

He made some kind of comment to the ass thing but then spoke seriously, "How long until Carter is back to work? The General called and said you were keeping her out of the loop for a couple days."

Sam came back out then, a frown on her features as she came over and climbed back in bed, this time on top of the covers as she was hot and laid her head right above Janet's clothed crotch and smiled mouthing, 'Gotta poop but can't' almost like a child's voice.

"That's right Sir," Janet said. "At the earliest the end of the week. I can give you something if you want?"

Sam just nodded closing her eyes and brought Janet's hand up to rub her belly, keeping her hand on top of it as it did.

"Give me what Doc" O'Neil asked curiously.

"Not you sir, Sam," Janet said. "Was there anything else?"

"Nah just wanted to check on my sick XO Doc. You take good care of her" Jack commented. "I'll talk to you later Doc, BYE CARTER" he hollered, not realizing he had done it right in Janet's ear.

Janet hung up the phone and put a finger in her ear trying to stop the ringing. "In case you didn't hear that the Colonel said get well and bye really loud." She continued to rub the stomach her hand was resting on. "You want me to get you something now?"

Opening an eye Sam smiled, "What..." she arched up to cough, "What you gonna get me Janet?"

"Don't you need something to help you go?" Janet asked. "I can either give you a pill or you can try eating a banana." Janet bent her fingers a little scrapping her nails across bare skin.

"Oh please" the woman said moaning and closed her eyes, "If you love me Janet, don't mention food...in fact" she said coughing, "Don't even think about it."

"Is your stomach hurting?" Janet asked moving her hand a little higher letting a nail graze the underside of a breast in a feather light touch.

"Oh yeah" Sam answered and opened her eyes smiling and winked. "You wanna look," she asked playfully, figuring Janet wouldn't take her up on it.

Janet just kept playing on Sam's skin with her fingers only stilling them when she leaned down to steal a kiss. "Don't you think that maybe you should get some clothes on?"

"Why" was the question as Sam leaned up and captured Janet's lips with hers before she could pull away?

"Temptation," Janet murmured through the kiss as her hand slid from Sam's stomach to slightly cup her ass.

"Is a good thing" Carter mumbled as she rolled on her side feeling the touch, pressing her lips closer to Janet's still clothed sex, just breathing in the smell and brought her hand up to rub just above it on her pelvis, "You're so beautiful Janet" she murmured through the light coughs.

"Sam you are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen," Janet whispered in her ear her breath disturbing the little hairs there, sending a chill down Sam's spin. "Are we moving too fast?" She asked suddenly unsure.

"Not fast enough" the woman mumbled and pressed her face down into Janet's crotch, rubbing it up and down even through the clothes and as she felt the other woman's hand on her ass she arched back a little, inviting her if she wanted to come in.

Janet gasped as Sam began to nuzzle her. Her breathing becoming more erratic, "God, Sam how I love you." Janet began to shift from a seated position to a more reclining one, her hand now moving to cup and caress a perfect breast.

Once Janet was lying down Sam carefully got on top of her, burying her mouth onto the woman's as she moaned and used her hands as they were lip locked to start unbuttoning the woman's shirt and slid from her lips to nuzzle and lick her neck, "I...want you Janet...you're so beautiful, so warm...I need you."

Janet now had both of her hands cupping and teasing Sam's breasts with the occasional scrape of a nail across a sensitive nipple. "I want you," Janet gasped out before dipping her head to reclaim Sam's lips.

Locked in passion the two women were soon together and Sam had her head between Janet's naked legs, rubbing them as she licked up the woman's moist slit, "Mmm...." she mumbled pulling Fraiser more toward her face as she brought fingers up to spread her open so she could get her tongue inside.

Janet dug her hands into Sam's hair as she spread her legs a little farther apart to give Sam better access. Soon she was moving in sync with Sam's tongue but wanted more, much more. She tugged Sam back up and deeply kissed her tasting herself on full lips. "No more teasing," she said begging Sam to enter her.

Locking eyes with her lover Carter let her hidden fingers trail down and gently rub the woman's love button tenderly, "What do you want Janet...Hmmm" she asked kissing her neck and started to trail down stopping at her bresat as she took her first nipple in her mouth while her fingers worked, rubbing harder.

"Please Sam," Janet begged lifting her hips off the bed. "I need you in me," she managed panting heavily.

Coming back up Sam locked eyes with Janet and then pressed her lips to hers as she slid her fingers down and pushed two of them inside hard. At the same time she used her tongue to dive into Janet's mouth, searching and sharing all the while she drove her love-covered fingers in and out of her lover.

With each thrust of Sam's fingers Janet rocked her hips trying to prolong the contact. She whimpered as she came close, waiting to fall of the edge, letting Sam rip each cry and moan from her lips.

Finally Sam Carter rolled off her lover after the loudest orgasm she had heard from the woman in the many they had been giving each other. Her fingers, tongue, body ached and she coughed, but oh how it was worth it. Carefully she slid one hand under Janet's neck and pulled her over to sleep on her shoulder and brought her other hand over to gently rub the woman's breast, "I love you Janet."

All Janet was capable of doing was mumbling something incoherent before sleep consumed her.

Hours later Sam Carter woke up, only half way coughing but realized she was on her side and felt someone playing with her lightly so she just closed her eyes again.

Janet bowed her head capturing Sam's still swollen lips. "That was amazing," Janet said with a bright smile. "Now I get to repay the favor," she breathed as she rolled them over so Sam was pinned below her. She shifted, scraping her nails across a well-toned stomach as she sucked and licked Sam's color bone before moving further down. Before she captured a nipple she sucked the skin just above the areola leaving her mark. "Now you are mine," she said with a wicked grin on her face before capturing one nipple. She luck sucked and nipped at the sensitive flesh occasionally removing her mouth far enough so she could blow on the damp skin enticing a moan from Sam. Then she switched and paid just as much attention to the other breast and nipple.

"OH...OH GOD" Sam cried out pushing her body up to meet the woman's tongue and teeth circling her and used her legs to wrap around Janet's lower half holding her. Her body quivered with anticipation when a cough interrupted, "I want you Janet..." she panted over and over again rubbing the woman's back and then trailed a finger to her ear and lightly began to caress it tenderly.

In a sultry voice Janet spoke, "Tell me what you want Sam." Then went back to her previous actions.

"You know what I want" was the passionate answer as she opened her legs a little more in an invitation, "Do it Janet," she panted, "I need you...inside me. Please" she begged as another wave of passion hit her.

Janet let her nails rake down Sam's body until they reached their destination. She circled two fingers coating them before penetrating Sam. Each stroke was slow and deliberate as Janet moved her body down Sam's a little more. Soon her head was leveled with her hands and she dipped her head taking the sensitive nub in her mouth, rolling her tongue around it and nipping it gently.

Passion, heat, fire filled the woman as she gave herself to Janet's fingers and tongue completely, trusting her to take her to passion and beyond and she arched against her. Reaching down she ran her hands through Janet's hair tenderly while at the same time trying to encourage her to penetrate her deeper, harder, more often and whatever else she could manage.

At Sam's insistence Janet began to thrust her fingers a little harder and deeper than before, pushing Sam to her limits, wanting to bring her to new heights.

As the third orgasm in the last hour hit her Sam Carter arched as she soaked Janet's face and fingers in her juices and then fell back on the bed, panting, sweating and exhausted. She didn't even have the energy to cough at this point and her eyes opened dreamily, "Oh God...Janet you're...You're unbelievable."

Janet finished taking in all of Sam's essence before moving back up her body and kissing her soundly on the lips allowing Sam to taste herself. "You're not so bad yourself," Janet stated between kisses before rolling onto her back taking Sam with her. She brought Sam's head to be pillowed on her shoulder as she ran her hand up and down the lanky spine.

Tiredly she nuzzled up to Janet and draped an arm over her stomach, lightly scraping her sides with tender fingernails, "I...didn't know passion...could feel that Janet. You're...an amazing, beautiful, charming, loving, caring, beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, intelligent, sensual woman" she finished and leaned over to lightly lick Janet's side with her tongue.

"And you are all those things and more Sam," Janet said. "You just needed the right person to show you."

"I definitely found her now" she mumbled and brought her hand up to squeeze Janet's breast before rolling the nipple tenderly in her fingers as she started to drift off to sleep.

A breathless gasp escaped her lips as Sam fondled her breast. "Shhh," Janet said. "Sleep now." She brought her hand up to still Sam's actions, allowing sleep to claim both of them.

At some point Sam had started coughing and rolled over to lie on her stomach. Lovemaking would be more fun once she wasn't coughing her brains out when she felt her lover scoot over and started to rub her back and ass cheeks alternately, "Hate...the flu" she mumbled tiredly.

"You haven't had you medicine in a while," Janet said as she began to move. "I'll be right back." She kissed bare skin between Sam's shoulder blades before scooting out of bed. She went to the kitchen retrieving Sam's pills and a glass of water before returning and making Sam take them. "What are we going to tell Cassie," she asked a little worried. "Or the others for that matter."

With a dreamy look in her eyes, "Most of the guys I think have a good idea I'm in love with you Janet," she admitted scooting her head over to lie on the pillows. "I have some rather 'sensual' dreams about you off world apparently. As for Cassie you'll be surprised how understanding she is" she admitted and thought of a talk she'd had with the girl one time. Shortly after she had come to Earth she'd thought Janet and Sam were a couple because of how they acted with one another, apparently on Hanka that wasn't taboo like it was on Earth.

"I think someone needs to either stop talking in their sleep or having sensual dreams," Janet chastised. "As much as Cassie loves both of us I'm a little worried that she will flip out. We haven't exactly talked about me seeing anyone seriously. And when I did go on that one date she panicked."

Arching up to cough the woman pulled Janet down to lay beside her and rolled on her side to hold her resting her chin on the nape of Janet's neck, "Baby, relax. I promise you, Cassie is the least of the worries. I can't tell you how I know but she was actually shocked that you and I weren't a couple when she first came to live with you; apparently Hanka doesn't have the same taboos as Earth."

"She thought we were together?" Janet questioned. "And she is just one of my worries, but not the worst of them."

"And the worst would be my love" she asked rubbing the woman's back gently as she kissed her neck tenderly and yet sensually.

"Have you forgotten that we are both career Air Force Officers," Janet said her voice filling with panic. "They don't exactly welcome gays and lesbians into their folds. It's grounds for immediate dismissal and if that should happen I lose clearance and Cassie is taken away." She was almost in tears at that realization. "I can't lose her and think of the emotional trauma it will cause for her."

Sitting up a little Sam coughed but put her hand on Janet's shoulder and turned her over, "Hey, trust me Janet...I am not going to let you loose Cassie. We'll do the best we can to keep our feelings off base, I think we can do that but even if we can't I have some ideas. But I promise you baby" she said softly and reached up to brush hair from her face. "You are never...we are never going to loose our daughter. Trust me on that...all right?"

Janet nodded and silently let the tears fall finding the safety she needed in her lover.

Two hours later Sam moaned when she heard the phone ringing and Janet moving to answer it in the darkened room. ~Amazing~ she thought, ~we managed to stay in bed and make love all day! ~

On the end of the phone Cassie's voice rang out, "Hi mom, how are you and Aunt Sam? She feeling better, I got an A on my science test; tell her for me would ya? Love you," she bubbled all at once.

"Slow down Cassie," Janet said smiling. "That's great that you got an A. Sam would be just as proud of you as I am." Janet smiled though worried still filed her eyes. "Sam is doing better. She still has the flu but it looks like she should be back to her old self in a few days. Are you behaving for the Colonel?"

"You bet I am mom, he's taking me for pizza tonight" she said excitedly.

Sam sat up and rubbed her stomach before pointing tiredly to the bathroom and got up after kissing Janet's thigh since it wasn't busy at the moment.

"Oh the school nurse sent a note to everyone, said it's time for those flu thingies. I told her you'd handle mine, she wanted to stick me in the arm" the girl told her. "We can skip it right?"

"You won't get the one offered at school, but I still need to give you one," Janet said as she watched Sam leave. "Cassie can I ask you a question. Now it doesn't mean it will happen its just something being considered at the moment."

"Sure you can mom and....hang on a minute" the girl said and covered the phone hollering to her Uncle Jack and then was back. "Shoot mom, well so to speak. What's up?"

"Cassie, what would you think if Sam were to move in with us?" She asked. "It would help save on costs and she spends most of her time here anyways when not off world."

"I'd think the same thing I thought when I wanted her to when I first got here mom; it would be cool" she proclaimed seriously. "Why? Is there something you and Aunt Sam need to talk to me about? I can come back home if you want me to mom; we can talk?"

"No honey nothing like that," Janet said. "I was just giving some thought to it. Sam doesn't even know I have been thinking about this. Don't worry."

"Ok if you're sure," she promised. "Uncle Jack and I will leave the note and my test in the mailbox; you can get them later as it has the time you gotta have me stuck by ok mom?"

"That's fine, I'll call and talk to the nurse," Janet said. "Have fun at dinner and I love you Cassie."

"Miss you mom, love ya. Bye" and hung up the phone.

Ten minutes later Sam came out holding her naked belly and smiled, "How long is that stuff supposed to take to work" she asked tiredly and crawled in at the foot of the bed resting her head again above Janet's naked crotch now, the heat hitting her full force as she trailed her fingers and nails lightly over her uncovered legs.

"Well it would have taken only a couple of hours had you taken something," Janet said with a smile. "But if you remember correctly there were other things you would have rather been doing," Janet ran her delicate fingers through unruly blond hair. "Cassie says Hi and that she loves you," Janet said. "Plus I am ordered to tell you she got an A on her science exam," she said pride filling her voice.

"Well I'm not surprised," Sam stated proudly. "She has a highly intelligent mother. Maybe we should try anal sex and knock what is in there loose" she joked and opened one tired eye to look up at Fraiser with a smile.

"Nice try but NO," Janet said. "Just not my cup of tea."

"Now that's surprising considering what the men say you do to them on base all the time" she commented ironically and snuggled up more to Janet. "Maybe I just need...." she coughed hard then "Sleep."

"No, you don't missy," Janet said tickling Sam. "Just what do all the men say?"

"Hey now" she joked between giggles, "You better...stop" and in response she dove her face right into Janet's open crotch and started licking her with a vengeance.

"Ah," Janet moaned then stopped tickling Sam and grabbed at her head stopping Sam's actions. "No more for you. Now tell me what they say?"

"Come on" she said coughing and looked hurt, or pretended to, "I'm sick...I need sustenance here...your sustenance Janet."

"Wrong Sustenance there," Janet said smiling. "And you are not getting anymore especially since you won't tell me."

"Sustenance pooper" she said and pulled away to crawl up and lay next to Janet and draped a hand over her waist coughing. "You do know that you...spend your days doing examinations on soldiers they don't like right? I mean they say you own every butt on the base Janet."

Laughing Janet just gave Sam a look. "Well I guess in a way I do. I mean I have been able to cower tough Marines by just mentioning an exam or flashing a needle."

"Hence my humor" Sam began coughing again, "At your mentioning a butt fetish Janet, kind of funny," she said rolling over onto her back. "So what do we do? More sex, food, shower, change the bed, movie, other?"

"Sam you sick and as much fun as sex was you still need to rest," Janet said smiling. "It would probably be a good thing for you to shower. You're starting to get a bit rank."

"Hey" the woman protested and sat up with a shocked look, "I'll have you know I resemble that remark but you gotta change the bed why I shower then."

"I planned on it since I am the only thing clean," Janet said and gave Sam a quick kiss before standing up.

"You are not" she protested and stood up tiredly as her stomach grumbled. "Uh oh" she stated rushing into the bathroom and closed the door.

Janet moved after Sam, but stopped at the closed door not wanting to open it if she was not welcome. "Sam, honey are you OK?"

A few grunts and a weak, "Yeah, just a ...little occupied at the moment Janet. I'm...fine."

"Are you sure? I'll bring you something if you need it," Janet offered a little concerned.

"Give me a couple minutes...then I'll let you know" Sam called out.

"I'll be changing the bed then," Janet said. "Just yell if you need me." She went to the linen closet in the hall and pulled out clean sheets and blankets. She stripped the bed and began to make it.

A few minutes later Sam came out looking much happier, "That feels a lot better Janet. I'm going to get a shower, can we order in some dinner," she asked going toward her bag in the floor to find some pajamas.

"Sure," Janet said almost finished with the bed. "What do you want to eat and I'll order it while you're in the shower."

"Anything as long as it has blue jello with it" she offered and glanced up winking grabbing a pair of pajamas. That was one of the worst things about the flu; your energy level came and disappeared.

Janet just laughed and headed down stairs to decide on what to order. She finally decided that Chinese would work. She could get a couple of items and some soup for Sam. She was on the phone calling in the order when the shower stopped.

Just as she was hanging up Sam came out of the kitchen then dressed her pajamas and her hair plastered wet to her head. She had a dish of blue jello and was just getting ready to take a bite as she walked past Janet toward the sofa.

"I will never understand why you love blue jello so much," Janet stated taking a seat next to Sam.

"Because it's good and it happens to be my favorite color, in addition" she offered swallowing and then coughed, "It was my mom's favorite, she made it for me when I was little" she offered, not realizing that was something that she had never told anyone. Eating another bite she yawned and laid her head over on Janet's shoulder, "Love you Janet."

"I love you too Sam," Janet said. "You never really talk about your mom."

"You would have liked her" Carter admitted taking another bite of the jello and swallowed it, the wince was there. "She was a computer specialist, a civilian working with the various military bases we were on because of dad's work. She was so smart Janet, beautiful and I'd have died to protect her."

"I'm glad you didn't though," Janet said, her voice filled with awe. "Your mother sounds a lot like someone else I know." Sam gave Janet a blank stare unable to figure out whom she could be talking about. "You silly."

A blush rose slowly in Sam's cheeks when there was a knock at the door. Sitting up she smiled, "Must be the eats. I'll pay if you wanna..."

"No I'll get it," Janet said rising. "You can set the table if you want."

Standing at the door was a teen delivery boy that knew her, "Hey Doctor Fraiser, long time no see" Alfred commented with a grin. "That's twenty-three eighty" he said glancing at the slip on one of the bags. "How are you and Cassie doing by the way?"

"We are doing good," Janet answered with a smile. "How are you doing? Staying out of trouble I hope?" She handed him twenty-eight dollars. "Keep the rest," She took the bags that held their dinner.

The boy nodded his thanks, "I'm doing ok Doctor Fraiser and as for trouble you know me" he offered with a wink. "Enjoy your dinner and tell Cassie I said hi would you?"

"Will do," Janet said. "Try not to work too hard." Was the last thing before closing the front door? She walked into the dinning room to join Sam but her lover was nowhere in sight.

"Hey" came Sam's heavy voice from behind her. "I sat things up on the coffee table and put in a DVD for us, come on" she offered gently.

Janet followed Sam back into the living room and began to remove the containers from the bag. "I forgot to tell you to grab some bowls and chop sticks." Janet stopped her task and began to stand up as if to move.

"You stay" she offered rising, full of energy at the moment, "I'll get it and grab us a couple beers too" she offered, forgetting she was on those medications and moved toward the kitchen.

Janet yelled after Sam. "You can't have any kind of alcohol. It mixes with your medication."

Instead the woman came back with two bottles fruit juices, "I forgot..." she coughed, "About that. So how much I owe you for my half" she asked sitting down and offered a juice to her lover while leaning over and stealing a kiss.

"You can pay me other ways," Janet smirked. "Just because you can't have a beer doesn't mean I can't." Janet pouted her lip for emphasis.

"I can get you one" she offered making a move to rise; she wasn't one to deny the woman anything.

"No its ok Sam," Janet said placing a hand on Sam's thigh. "I'll serve what would you like? We have Wonton Soup. Beef and Broccoli, Chow Mein and Sweet and Sour Pork." Janet was seated on the floor between the coffee table and the couch.

Clearing her throat as she sat back down Sam opened her juice and took a drink, "Uh a little of everything I guess" she offered sealing the bottle and sat it down before starting the DVD by way of a remote.

Janet dished out a little of everything handing a plate and a bowl to Sam. "So what are we watching?" She asked as she dished out her food.

"I have a friend that sent me a new release of that Princess Diaries Two: The Royal Engagement before it comes out in theatres next week" the woman commented settling back on the sofa and used one hand to pat the spot next to her, Janet could recline against the corner and Sam could lean against her as they ate and watched.

"We are going to watch a kids movie," Janet commenting not realizing Sam wanted her to sit up on the couch.

"It's a Disney movie" Carter commented coughing lightly and shook her head. "They make me feel better when I'm sick. Janet are you going to sit up here with me or not?"

"Do I have too?" Janet playful asked. "So that's the reason behind all the Disney movies."

Taking a bite of her pork as the credits began Sam laughed, "First off, yes you have to because I'm sick and I want to lay against you so I'll feel better. As for the Disney movies it's something else from my youth, only this time my dad" she offered with a smile at the memory. "Every time I was sick and dad was home he'd bring in a Disney movie and hold me while we watched it, I always felt better."

Janet couldn't help but laugh. "I just can't see Jacob Carter watching a Disney movie," she said as she moved up onto the coach making herself comfortable. She took another couple of bites before taking a drink of her juice.

Leaning over she kissed Janet before carefully turning around and using her feet to push her back against her and got comfortable, she didn't want a blanket because she was hot anyway, "Well it's true, he was a very cute father though don't tell him I ever said that. Now hush" she commented taking another bite of her dinner.

As Janet watched the movie she continued to eat, occasionally feeding Sam a piece of broccoli or pork. When she finally finished she set her plate down and wrapped her arms around her lover nuzzling her neck.

Sam had already had her fill and Janet had gotten up earlier to get her a blanket which she huddled into bringing her hands up to cover her lovers on her stomach as she turned her head a little to give her better access to her neck, "You know" she said softly, "This must be heaven...I'm being cared for and loved by a gorgeous angel."

Janet laughed. "Would never have though of you as a sweet talker. You must want something?" Janet tickled Sam's stomach with her nails as she spoke.

Giggling a little she brought one of Janet's hands up and kissed it, softly and gently over and over again, "I have...all I could ever want" she said pushing back against Janet a little more and then turned her head for a kiss and puckered up with a wink, "Kiss me I'm cute" she stated.

"How can I resist," Janet teased and leaned down to kiss Sam trying to convey her love in that one connection.

The movie now forgotten Sam gently held the kiss and slid Janet's hand in hers under the blanket and into her pajama bottoms, she had left the underwear off already. "I love you so much Janet."

Janet allowed her one hand to be guided down and into Sam's pajama bottoms. She played with Sam's sensitive flesh sliding her fingers lightly over areas that cried out for more before scrapping nails over the same areas.

In response Sam slid down and rested her head in Janet's lap while at the same time opening her legs under the blanket and pulled her hand out, covered in her own juices she offered her fingers to Janet and spoke in a sultry, sexy voice, "I want you inside...now."

Janet pulled the offered fingers into her mouth, running her tongue along the surface. As her tongue caressed Sam's digits she thrust two fingers inside causing Sam to raise her hips.

Using her feet to push her up Sam arched and gave her lover more of a chance to dive inside her as she pushed her fingers in and out of the woman's mouth and smiled, a dreamy smile while opening and closing her eyes and using her hands to rub her own breasts.

Janet's free hand found its way to Sam's breast as it caressed the flesh then pinched an over sensitive nipple. Janet allowed Sam to pull her fingers out of her mouth and grabbed the back of Janet's head with the wet digits. "I love you," Janet whispered.

"Not as much as I...AH" Sam screamed as she felt Janet tickle her inside. With an evil smile Sam brought her one hand up and started to unbutton Janet's PJ top so she could rub her breasts, pinching them lightly and she leaned her head up catching one in her mouth. Her tongue running over the nipple lightly grazing it with her teeth.

Janet's breathing began to come in gasps at Sam's ministrations. "No distracting," Janet managed thrusting harder into Sam while still playing with her nipples.

In response Sam brought her hand down and started massaging Janet's other breast as she sucked her nipple tenderly and yet firmly as she felt the woman's fingers pushing in and out of her, she was sopping wet and was so close...

Janet's actions increased as she felt Sam start to clench her fingers. A few final thrusts and Sam cried out in ecstasy.

Minutes later, panting and with a tired look in her eyes Sam Carter looked up at her lover who still had her hand in her pants, "Oh God baby...you are ...Just God you're great."

Janet smiled down at Sam before capturing delicious lips in a savory passionate kiss. "Go to sleep," she whispered as she withdrew her hand offering it to Sam.

Opening her mouth Sam ran her tongue over, through the fingers and just savored the taste until finally she could talk, "What...about you? I want...to make love to you Janet...show you..." she paused to cough, "Show you the lover you showed me," she admitted tiredly.

"Its OK," Janet said bringing her hand to brush back blond hair. "There is plenty of time for me. Just rest now. You're tired." Even though Janet was sopping wet herself Sam needed to rest and she was content to hold her love. "Are you going to tell your father?"

"I'm going to tell the world as soon as I figure out the best wording" she commented sleepily and smiled. "I love you Janet and I want the world to know, I just have to figure out how to word it. Let me take you upstairs, make love to you" she asked.

"We can go upstairs, but why don't you get some sleep," Janet said loosening her hold on Sam.

Sitting up Carter shut off the DVD and stood up slowly reaching down to pick up Fraiser's hands, "Because I want to show the woman I love..." turning her head she coughed, "How much I love her. Come on."

"Sam, I really think you should get some rest," Janet said. "This can wait till tomorrow."

By the time they got upstairs Sam had to agree, she barely had enough energy to get to the bed and lay down as she coughed, sweat pouring from her just from the exertion of walking up the stairs, "I'm...I'm sorry baby" she told Janet. "Just so...tired all of a sudden."

"It's alright Sam," Janet said brushing wet bangs from a damp forehead. "It's to be expected. This is the flu and now you need to rest. I'll bring your medicine up," Janet kissed pouting lips and turned to head back downstairs. The next morning Janet woke up with a feeling between her legs and when she lifted the blankets she saw a blond head between her legs.

Sam looked up with a smile, "Morning baby girl."

"Mmm morning," Janet moaned out as she spread her legs farther apart. She reached down with one hand threading her fingers through unruly blond hair while the other hand had a firm grip on the headboard.

Pushing her head forward Sam buried her face in Janet's vaginal lips, she was soaked and slowly started to lick her clit. First up and down and then in small circles as she brought a hand up to rub her breast under the pajama shirt she had left on last night.

Janet's hips started to move with every thrust Sam's tongue made. "Sam please," she pleaded not wanting to wait anymore as she pushed Sam's head into her more.

Pulling her head back Sam had a surprise for her lover and slowly slid up her body under the covers, wrapping her hand around the surprise she had found, "Please what Janet" she moaned pausing at her breast to place her lips over it and then pulled back to blow on it, "Does my baby girl want something?"

"Sam please...I...want...you," Janet moaned out unable to finish the sentence, speech now a problem.

"And you'll have me baby" she promised pushing farther up, the hard plastic dildo in her hand now pressing lightly against her lovers vagina as Sam locked her lips with her. Gently she started to run the dildo up and down Janet's slit before breaking the kiss, "You ready Janet...you want this don't you?"

"Please Sam," Janet begged love filling her eyes.

At her lovers pleading Carter led with her tongue, biting Janet's lower lip lightly and then slowly started to push the hard plastic device into her with a moan, "Mmm...." she ran her tongue as far down Janet's throat as she could and slid it out and in slowly, going deeper each time.

Janet brought her hands up to grip Sam's shoulders, digging her nails into the flesh through the shirt. Janet twisted her mouth away from Sam's dragging in much needed air and letting a gasp escape her lips. "Ah...Sam." Her hips bucked with each thrust Sam made tying to prolong the contact and increase the pressure.

Minutes later Sam and Janet both cried out in ecstasy as she drove the dildo hard and deep a final time. Twirling it around Sam collapsed onto of Janet but then slowly started to pull it out, "You ok baby Jan?"

Janet had a lazy smile spread across her face. "Better than OK," she answered sleepily.

Sliding the dildo out Sam brought it out and up to her mouth, licking it and slid it between Janet's lips as she used her other hand to slide three fingers inside the woman, "Relax baby...I'm not going to hurt you" she answered in a sleepy, sing song voice.

Janet gasped as Sam's fingers entered her, but she still moved with them even though she was sore.

With gentleness Sam brought her lover to her second orgasm of the morning and then rolled over her to cough after licking her fingers dry and looked lazily at the woman who seemed asleep.

Janet fell asleep after her second orgasm not able to move or think, just sleep. It was several hours later when sleep filled eyes started to blink open.

And at that moment Sam came in carrying a tray with brunch food on it and smiled though she coughed and looked sicker than anything but still she was excited. Gently she sat the tray over her lover's legs and sat beside her holding it, "Hey Janet. How you feeling" Sam asked, forgetting she was the sick one at the moment.

"Better now that you're here, though I'm not sick," Janet said stealing a kiss. "I could get use to this. All this."

"You better" Carter commented with a wicked smile and started to spread a napkin over her lover's chest so she could eat. "Just cereal with fresh fruit, juice, toast and coffee this morning because I wasn't feeling too good, but I love you so it's all ok I figure" Sam commented yawning. "Took my medicine too, about an hour ago."

"Move in," Janet blurted out without thinking.

"Wha...What did you say" she asked staring at Janet, fully aware now.

"I'm ...I'm sorry," Janet said and managed to get out from under the tray without spilling any of the food. She headed for her bathroom shutting the door behind her and locking it. She sank onto the floor drawing her knees up and wrapping her arms tightly around them. Tears began to fall as she berated herself in regards to her stupid invitation. ~God Janet how could you, you just got the woman of your dreams and you ask her to move in with you. She would never so soon. ~

Sitting on the bed almost in shock Sam ground her teeth together, ~Great move Carter, you idiot. How could you be so stupid? ~ Rising she sat the tray down carefully in the floor and went to the door finding it locked she knocked, "Janet, please let me in. I want to talk about this baby...please. Just open the door..."

"No," Janet managed between sobs. "Just leave."

Her own tears coming the woman knocked loudly, "Janet I love you...I want to move it, it just...well it shocked me out of the blue. Please...open the door; it's going to be all right. I want to be you...I need to be with you...I LOVE YOU" she cried out so loudly that someone likely thought the house would have shaken.

"Just go away like you want," Janet yelled, not hearing a word Sam said.

"I'm not doing that" Carter insisted and realized she'd have to fix this later but...stepping back she rushed the door with her shoulder and heard it start to give way. "I love you Janet...I'm not...loosing you" and she rushed at it again; she'd be lucky if she didn't dislocate her shoulder but it didn't matter.

Janet never heard the banging of the door the pounding in her heart drowning it out. "I'm sorry Sam," she began to talk out loud to no one in particular. "I shouldn't have requested this so soon. I know we're not ready for this. I'm sorry." She continued to cry and started rocking trying to comfort herself.

And then the door burst open, splintering the frame but that was easily fixed. Sam came pouring through and managed to hit her head on the tub as she saw Janet jump but didn't care how much her body, her chest, her shoulder or anything hurt and she rushed over pulling Fraiser into her arms and held her, rubbing her back, "Baby I'm sorry...I want to do move in, I want to spend my life with you...thank you...thank you so much for asking me. I love you so much baby girl" she commented and just kept talking and talking, coughing and talking no matter how much it hurt; she wasn't ever letting her go.

Janet forgot that Sam had hit her head and just clung to her lover like a lifeline. "I'm sorry Sam, I didn't mean to push us too fast. I know we're not ready." The tears continued to fall, as she really didn't hear what Sam was telling her.

Sensing that her words weren't getting through Carter held her until the sobs stopped and pulled back, "Yes, I want to move in" she said slowly and with purpose, "If you ...still want me to that is?"

Janet stared at Sam wide-eyed, "Y...you do," she stuttered.

Rubbing her lovers arms the woman smiled brightly, "Janet, I love you. Be..." she turned her head to cough not realizing her whole body ached now that the crisis was passed or passing. "Be confident in that. Nothing is EVER going to make me stop loving you. I want to spend my every moment with you."

Janet's sobs became few and few. She dropped her head ashamed to look up. "I'm sorry," she got out in gasps. "I didn't mean to throw that out there so soon."

Reaching out Sam lifted her chin to look at her and had a wide smile, "Hey, it's ok. I'm glad you felt confident enough in our relationship to ask and I love the idea" she commented. "Just took me a little by surprise, not the idea of it but just the all of the sudden it was there approach" she said and used her thumb to rub the woman's cheek. "I love you Janet, that's all that matters ok?"

"I love you so much Sam," Janet said her voice rough from crying. "I have been thinking about this since I read your journal. I just want to spend every minute I can with you."

Stroking her lovers hair the woman smiled, "I'm glad you feel that way, so do I Janet but..." she glanced over at the door with a bit of a wicked smile, "I hope you still feel that way after you see your bathroom door honey."

Janet let out a small wry laugh. "Doors are replaceable." She leaned forward and kissed Sam, "You're not." She kissed her again savoring in the feel of soft lips upon her own. "We should probably move out of the bathroom." Janet mumbled through the kiss.

Capturing the woman's lips again Sam took an extra moment with the kiss until she had no choice but to break it to breathe, "I...I think we should but you're going to have to help me" she promised and scooted back rubbing her shoulder and then her head. "I...was a little aggressive getting in here Janet."

Janet stood and pulled Sam up. "Sit on the bed and let me take a look. I want to be sure you didn't do too much damage to that hard head of yours or to your shoulder," Janet said and sniffled a bit.

Standing up slowly with her lover's help she went and sat on the bed, swaying only once and watched Janet inspecting the door before coming over. With a weak smile she coughed and moaned as it made her body ache, "I'll fix the door as soon as you're done with me Janet; while you're eating your cereal or something."

"The door can wait Sam," Janet said her voice sounding more normal. "I'm more worried about you, especially with head injuries." Janet stood before a sitting Sam as she looked at her head making sure there was no damage. Then she lifted her shirt checking her shoulder for injuries.

And Sam winced lightly, "Oh yeah...that hurts. Why do I think this is going to end with...'Sam get dressed, you need x-rays'" she asked good naturedly and looked up at Janet with a weak smile.

Unable to resist Janet kissed tempting lips. "I know what the x-rays will tell me. You have nothing broken, just a slight sprain. There will be bruising though." Janet kept applying pressure to the shoulder.

Feeling the shoulder start to give way the woman knew what Janet was doing as she turned her head to the left just as it popped back in place; "AH" she hollered at the pain and then fell back on the bed coughing. "Damn that...hurt."

"When you decide to ram doors there will be pain involved," Janet said softly. "I'm sorry for that." It was quiet for a moment or two before Janet let her hands fall to the bottom of Sam's shirt and start to lift it. "Take your shirt of and lay face down on the bed," she instructed.

Looking up lightly Sam smiled and sat up tiredly unbuttoning her shirt, "I...should fix...the door Janet. And your breakfast is getting soggy."

"The door won't go anywhere," Janet said. "Let me make you feel better since I caused the pain in the first place." Janet helped Sam out of her shirt. "Now lay face down."

"You don't cause me anything but joy honey, indescribable joy" she promised laying out and yawned while resting her head on the bed. "If I drift off I'm sorry."

"If you begin to drift off then you are more than relaxed," Janet whispered. She climbed onto the bed and straddled Sam's hips. With her doctors touch she began to rub and massage not only Sam's sore shoulder but also her back.

And it wasn't long before Sam did drift off and woke up hours later, noticing she was in the middle of the bed and covered up but also heard feet and smelled food. Opening sleepy eyes she saw Janet coming in with a tray, "Mmm...good massage" she commented tiredly and turned her head to cough seeing the doctors bag on the bedside table and laughed. "Uh oh, that bag usually means I'm in trouble."

"Glad you liked it," Janet said sitting the tray down. "I want to listen to you breath to make sure the flu hasn't moved into your chest. But that can wait till after lunch." Janet stole another kiss before standing up and heading towards the door.

"Love you" Sam called as she started to eat from the tray.

U.S.A.F. Academy Hospital
Fraiser's Office

For three days Janet took care of Sam and Sam took care of Janet before they had gone into the Air Force Academy Hospital so that the labs and x-rays could be ran to see the state of the flu. They had talked to Cassie about Sam moving in and the girl loved it so once she had felt a little stronger Carter had started to make the needed arrangements to be in the place by the next month, Hammond fully believing the reasons that they had come up. The guys had visited and wished her a speedy recovery before going off on a mission without her; which Sam had hated a lot but standing in her lover's office professionally holding Cassandra's hand as her mom prepared to give her some type of shot the school wanted her to have she felt at home; with her family and her love everything was all right.

"MOM" Cassie whined in her teenage voice, "You know we can just skip this right? I mean I have enough holes and Uncle Jack says ..."

"Don't listen to Uncle Jack all the time honey," Janet said. "This is something you need to help in case you get the flu. Its a special mixture that works with the Naqada in your blood." Janet swabbed Cassie's arm and painlessly gave her the shot. "See, nothing to worry about. I told you it wouldn't hurt. Why don't you take a nap for a bit, till Sam and I are finished."

Cassie moved onto the couch and laid down quickly falling asleep.

"You know we have to tell her," Janet whispered looking at her lover.

"And we will" Sam promised as she and Janet tiptoed into Janet's inner office and closed the connecting room door. "I'm planning on taking you guys out to dinner tonight and then we'll tell her after, but I really don't think you have anything to worry about. I did want to tell you something though" she offered and went to pat the sofa for her to sit beside her.

Janet followed Sam over to the chairs and took the offered seat. "What do you want to tell me?" Janet asked a bit curious.

Taking a deep breath the blond woman reached over and took her lovers hand, "That I talked to the Colonel...I...I told him how I felt about you and that as soon as I could, once I'm off medical leave, I'm telling Hammond. He insisted I shouldn't but the fact is that I have a lot of favors with the General and if need be I can call in everyone. At worst I resign and work as a civilian consultant or in the labs but then the Air Force can't stop us from being together Janet."

Janet abruptly stood up and began pacing her office. "You can't just make decisions like this without talking it over with me first," Janet said. "Did you tell the Colonel that we are in fact in a relationship or just what your feelings were?" Janet sighed this was not good not good at all. "And you can't tell the General even if he is your Godfather. Sam, if he knows he has to report it. I'm glad your willing to take being a civilian but the fact is I will still be Air Force. I will still be in trouble and I can't resign and become a civilian. If I did I would loose all clearance to keep Cassie."

Sighing the woman stared at the woman she loved, felt her anger and concern deeply but she sighed again, "Janet I didn't tell the Colonel anything but that I loved you. He asked how you felt about me and I told him I had no idea. When he asked about the living arrangements I told him that was a friend thing for the reasons we stated and he believed it. As for the General he won't report it, and not because he is my Godfather but because he knows that without me the Stargate program wouldn't last more than a couple months, everyone knows that and I'm not bragging" she said standing up. "The President himself owes me a lot, even before I came to the SGC and I can call in those markers to make sure you don't get into trouble and I will but I don't want to hide how much I love you. From Cassie, the guys or the world; I want everyone to know."

"Sam, I think its wonderful that you want to announce our love for each other to everyone, but I don't think I'm ready too," Janet sighed and continued to pace.

The admission burned into her soul like a hot poked and Sam knew she should be understanding but instead she rose and nodded coming over and giving the woman a friendly kiss on the cheek, "I'll...I'll be home later Janet, I have some things I need to take care of. Tell Cassie I love her and I'll see her later would you please?"

Janet called out to Sam's retreating back. "Please wait. Don't do this Sam," Janet pleaded but Sam kept on walking leaving a distraught Janet behind. She was so afraid, but she didn't know how to make Sam see that.

SGC Complex
Briefing Room

For two days no one heard from Carter, an investigation was launched and finally George Hammond called in his premiere team and Doctor Fraiser, "Colonel, I'm afraid that the Pentagon has ordered that we stop allocating resources to search for Major Carter. After her car was found abandoned it's believed that she has either been captured, by who they have no idea, or that she has been killed for some reason and her body disposed of. I'm sorry, I've alerted the Tok'ra already" he said sadly.

"General permission to..." O'Neil began.

The older man shook his head, "We've exhausted every lead we have Colonel, there is no sign of Major Carter. There has been no activity on her bank accounts or any other electronic traces. Find me one piece of proof she's still alive and I'll launch the investigation again but for more Major Carter is being listed as missing."

Infirmary

After General Hammond dismissed the briefing Janet headed strait to her office. She paused long enough in the infirmary to speak with Abby her head nurse.

"I...I'm going to leave. Please notify Warner to come in and that he is in charge. No teams are due back so there shouldn't be any problems," Janet said fighting to hold back the tears. She managed to finish her conversation, grab her things from her office and leave the base before she lost the fight and the tears started to fall. This was all her fault, if she had only agreed with Sam and been willing to come forward with their relationship none of this would have happened and Sam would still be with her.

Special Place

She drove on automatic not knowing or paying attention to where she was going but when she parked the car the location was obvious. It was one of their favorite places to escape to. Janet locked her vehicle and headed up the trail to the ring of redwood tree that was their favorite area for a picnic. She sat on a stump and lost herself in her emotions letting the pent up tears fall.

Next: Missed Love